The night before last I told my fiance while watching the late news that if they pass the war funding bill, they will lose me. I am a lifelong democrat and I'm tired of being branded a wimp. It's a very effective branding, and I'm powerless to stop it. I don't care about the calculations, I don't care that we don't have the votes. What the democratic party doesn't understand is that at certain times the important thing is principle and not calculations. I'm tired of the calculating party. It doesn't represent me. I was going to say that I'm full of impotent rage, but it's really not accurate upon deeper reflection. Really, I just feel sad, disappointed, and dejected. Unfortunately, I also feel resigned. I don't have some delusion that independents will somehow mount a credible challenge someday. But I have to live with myself and my own idea of principle. If the democratic party has a pathological drive to be wimps, so be it. I'm going to remove myself from that calculus.