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    Rebecca and I are some of the "lucky" ones.  We've made it to the other side.  Most victims of child sexual abuse don't (See our Tribute Page).  They either take their own lives or live their life in such a way as to re-create the abuses inflicted upon them.  Dead inside, detached, going through the motions, but continuing the cycle of self-abuse on themselves through the choices they make.

    My mode of escape was reading (see my post The Little Trailer).  In those books I found a world I could only dream about.  And because I was a voracious reader, education became extremely important to me.

    Like Rebecca, I became the straight A student.  I'm in an MBA program right now and my Academic Advisor called me just the other day, pulled up my record and said he had never seen anyone with straight A's throughout the curriculum!  That doesn't speak to my intelligence as much as it does to my desire to please.  Teachers, clergy, bosses, boys, men - I had been taught from a young age to "please" them - in whatever form that took.  

    But, something miraculous happened in my desire to please.  I started learning...lots of things.  And with each milestone I achieved (Honor roll, President's Honor roll, Associates Degree, Bachelor's degree, certiifcation programs, now MBA) with each accomplishment, it gave me a feeling of value.  Worth and value that was stripped away from me at 5 years old (see my post I was 5 when the grooming began).  

    This, too, will be a part of our venture...stay tuned and look for our announcement for April 2nd...

    "...I am the master of my fate/I am the captain of my soul" Invictus - William Ernest Henley

    by Roxine on Wed Mar 28, 2012 at 07:29:10 AM PDT

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