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  •  Jewel will be there to guide her... (4+ / 0-)

    ... over the Bridge.  Ever the maternal grand lady, she will take Raven under her wing.

    Jewel - April 9, 1986 - November 1, 2012

    The grief is raw, and new, yet not unfamiliar.  How does one know when the time has come to part ways with a noble creature--part of the family for over twenty-two years--when there is no voice to say, “I’m ready?”  As Jewel stood there, shifting her weight to legs that could no longer compensate; as she stood there, her knee buckling, her body shaking, no interest in grazing; as she stood there, removed from the herd, unable to move without great, struggling effort; as she stood there, I knew.  She told me in her own way, unmistakably.

    Knowing this, however, doesn’t lessen the grief, or the hurt, or the memories that come flooding back, and the questions playing over and over in my mind.  Could I have done more?  Is there anything else we could have tried?

    Her heart was strong, fighting till the very end, till the very last breath.  She was always stoic, always maternal, always patient; she was my sweet, sweet girl.  She was the barefoot four-year-old I found in a pasture; she was the trusty Pony Club mount; she was the hunter-jumper champion; she was the devoted mama; she was the steady therapeutic riding horse; she was the content retiree.  And then the fetlocks dropped, and the weight melted off, and her skin and coat deteriorated.

    Yes, it was time.  Yes, she was ready.  But damn, it hurts.

    Canter off into fields perpetually green, dear girl, on legs strong and stable once more.

    "Lock up your libraries if you like; but there is no gate, no lock, no bolt that you can set upon the freedom of my mind." --Virginia Woolf

    by Helen in NC on Wed Nov 21, 2012 at 05:21:49 AM PST

    •  Such a lovely tribute to her (2+ / 0-)

      And of course it hurts. She was a member of your family.

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      Why are war casualty counts "American troops" and "others" but never "human beings"?

      by Kitsap River on Wed Nov 21, 2012 at 03:31:29 PM PST

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