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  •  I've been the lucky one in my family (5+ / 0-)

    My melanona is or was at stage 3-A when the site and lymph nodes where cut out just over a year back.  So other than a constant throbbing at the scar site, the testing and meds I'm on know every 3 months . . .  and the fear.  The worst part is the fear.  It's getting better now, as I'm almost a year and a half since the initial discovery.  But the fear.

    My fear is deep and old.  I watched my mother die of breast and lung cnacer in 1960.  April 12, 1960 at 4:30 in the morning.  I was 13.  The last time she was home, out of the hospital, she broke the window out of the living room because there was no air in the room.  That started the fear.

    My sister had breast cancer about 8 years back, and had every terrible side effect of the chemo that they list.  My other sister had breast cancer about 4 years back, and is clear now also.  

    My wife's brother almost didn't survive his battle with stage 4-B melanoma 2 years ago.

    So the fear is really deep and really old.

    "We borrow this Earth from our Grandchildren."

    by Arizona Mike on Mon Mar 31, 2014 at 09:23:53 PM PDT

    •  Wow! What do the docs say about the throbbing (3+ / 0-)

      at the scar site? Maybe there is something that can be done. PT or massage or acupuncture or ????

      I know what you mean about the fear. I am often paralyzed by it and it is always there right under the surface.

      I've learned breathing exercises and meditations but many times I just reach for the Xanax. I hope you have something that helps.

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      by ZenTrainer on Mon Mar 31, 2014 at 09:35:47 PM PDT

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    •  {{{{{Arizona Mike}}}}} (1+ / 0-)
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      I am so terribly sorry you lost your mother that way, when you were so young. What an ordeal. Were you alone with her? That kind of experience you don't forget.
      Unfortunately, it looks like you have had a lot of scary encounters already. I know, and understand completely, how easy it is to carry that forward into your own condition. I hope you can figure out ways through and beyond. Their fates are not theirs; yours is unique.
      I was terrified, no question, when I had my lung mets detected. I thought I was done for. And then, as it happened, my treatments worked. I do remember the fear, though, and hope that it stays at bay for a while yet.
      I wish all treatments worked for everyone. I hope yours do for you.
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      by peregrine kate on Tue Apr 01, 2014 at 06:42:05 PM PDT

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