I concur. I am not proud of the fact that I have seemed to have run out of concern. The energy is simply not there.
You see, I always thought if you continued to do the next right thing, to the best of your ability, things would get better. This would hold true not just for yourself, but for everyone in your sphere, and through association, everyone throughout the world. one person affecting another, affecting another.
It's not true. I have tried, for many years, to do the next right thing. Now, I am tired, disillusioned and angry; which, by the way, makes it damn hard to do the next right thing on a regular basis.
The world is more polluted, the poor are more desperate and the hungry more so. War rages in my name although I opposed it with all my might. Torture continues although I loathe the idea and the people who perpetrate and support it. Katrina survivors continue to be ignored although I have given more than I can afford.
My financial situtaion has deteriorated as a result of my humanitarian efforts and the markets haven't helped the situation. The job I have is not secure, although I  give it my all every single day. The people who depend on me for jobs are more desperate than me and I feel a resposibility for them which is heavy. My fear for them is greater than for my own future.
I look for signs of things getting better and I see a few small signs of light, but realize the depths we have fallen may be to deep from which to emerge. I fear for the humanity we once believed we could attain.
And I look for leaders and see NONE. No one in politics, no one in religion, no one in business. NO ONE.
That's why I am tired, that's why I am depressed, that's why I am at times ready to give up. I don't have children, so I don't have a genetic responsibilty. So I sometimes think its okay to let things slide.
But I don't. I continue to try and do the next right thing. Even though I am tired, even though I am depressed, even though I am scared about our future. Why..., because its the right thing to do and because its our only hope as a people.
So, I'll continue to give while it hurts and care although its painful. Because to do less would be to be less, and it would not be right for me.
Hope its not right for you either.