Last week could have been among the best of my life.
Tonight instead of celebrating, I'm sitting wondering how it all went so wrong!
Giving a gift meant to show loving care.....but instead misinterpreted as dictating lifestyle whose values aren't shared.
A celebration of a great event, but losing friends in the process.
It wasn't supposed to happen this way. Why?
Sometimes you try so hard
To be just right.
To be kind and thoughtful
All of the time.
A gift that shows you have
Standards that value the tomorrow
While celebrating today.
But it's accepted begrudgingly
Like you had a selfish motive.
Or you plan an event all the way
Through with a team of players
Only to find you did it all wrong
And made enemies for life instead.
You wonder why, just what did you do
To gain such wrath from unselfish acts?
Did you overlook feelings or misread
Did you get carried away with the result
And not value the path along the way?
Are you too sensitive?
Does this happen to all mothers
And activists who change the world?
When you stick out your neck
Does it get chopped off clean and straight?
Are you really an unfeeling grotesque
Mean daughter of a bitch (Sorry Mom!)
Or are you too dumb to see your foot
In your mouth leaving you deformed?
These should be moments of fulfillment,
Of joys galore.
But instead they are grueling scoldings
When all you meant to do was
To do the right thing.
I want to tell a good friend,
To cry on a shoulder so strong,
To have someone wipe my tears
And tell me all will be all right.
But instead I sit alone in my blog
And talk to the computer instead.
What did I do wrong?
Why did I do wrong
When I thought I did it all just right?