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A family member recently referred to me as being resentful of the system, especially given recent events. Well, yes, I am resentful. Some would call me envious, but it isn't as simple as that.
If I am resentful, it's because I have to work so much harder than most others just to be able to start at the bottom. That's made worse by the fact that employers are using every excuse they can draw from to avoid hiring people. So in short, the added rejection doesn't help either.
People also say that we have it easy because we have agencies that can help us find and retain employment. What those same people fail to realize is that those same agencies are often very underfunded and understaffed, meaning that those folks who are there to help us can't do nearly enough to assist us in any way.
Even with employment, many of us are relegated to living on fixed incomes because the jobs we do get don't even come close to paying for things like rent. We also have to rely on public assistance for any medical needs we may have. And still, some of us can't even get that help because we have to 'play the game' in order to cut through the red tape.
So, yes, I am resentful. At this point in time I'm not sure what can be done to change it, because it seems like any time I feel like I'm getting somewhere, I end up right back at square one.
I've been unemployed virtually my entire adult life, so in the eyes of most, that makes me look lazy. It's not like I haven't tried to work, but I've been shot down every single time. I even went to college so that I'd be able to find work in something I can actually do and it still wasn't enough. I'm at the point where I feel like throwing my hands up and saying 'I don't want it anymore,' because society and the system keep moving the damn goal posts.
I'd love to move to a place that might actually give me a chance for a change, but we all know life isn't as simple as that.