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A number of months ago, I discussed (via emails and running comments on other diaries) with PK my write a diary on my navigation with my limitations, some very big and deliberate changes I was about to make in my life.  Now, almost 6 months later, I have determined that I do not know if I can win the Oscar for Procrastinator of the Year, but I am at least a nominee for the award.

First I feel that I should provide a brief discussion of my "Cancer History" so that our newer folks might better understand how my cancer has imposed limits on me.  
(this is a week of cancer-related anniversaries for me too*yikes* so please, bear with me).

On Feb. 6, 2012 I went to see my PCP for a lingering cough.  I got a chest x-ray then a CT-Scan that day. The next day I was referred to and seen by a Pulmonologist because of a very suspicious mass in my left upper lung lobe.  April 6, 2012 I received my clinical diagnosis from my Oncologist: 5 cm tumor in my Left Lung Upper Lobe.  I had Stage IIIA, Non-small cell lung cancer, Moderately differentiated Squamous cell Carcinoma. The next Monday I started the first of 3 cycles of Chemotherapy prior to having surgery scheduled.  Surgery ended up being delayed after finishing my chemo because my body decided it wanted to revolt for a while.  I finally had Surgery February 5, 2013. Last week (January 28, 2014) I met with my new oncologist and I am Currently with the Diagnosis of: History of Lung Cancer, No Evidence of Disease (NED).

There are a lot of details between February 6, 2012 and Today but let me just say that although I was never a drama major in College,  I think I earned a PH.D in Dramatic  immune systems over the past 2 years. (this discussion will continue below the orange colored birds nest)

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Life has intervened, I was not be able to complete my discussion on this topic.  

My apologies to everyone.  

Open thread!  may I suggest a great topic of discussion? people who fail in their commitments, how does it make you feel?

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Originally posted to DarkHawk98 on Mon Feb 03, 2014 at 05:25 PM PST.

Also republished by Monday Night Cancer Club.

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