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Since I've been terminated I spend the day applying for jobs, sleeping, and playing World of Warcraft,

Since I cannot drive I basically sit at home with the two cats and listen to the silence, or the TV and slowly go nuts.

When I worked, I worked from home and loved what I did... now after the second and third week, when I've applied to the most places that I can and I check the ads each week and apply to anything and everything I can, it gets depressing.

My caregiver, who I had been seeing 3 times a week is on vacation this week down in KY, so my normal human contact has been significantly curtailed.

That and I had my first seizure in over a year the other day.

I keep plugging away.... I know things, well, I hope things get better, but sometimes I just want to scream.... and lord knows I am not a screamer.

I had to cancel my third MD appointment (3 specialists so far) as even though work is paying my insurance during my time off, they've as of yet gotten the paperwork to me, so I cannot go the MD office unless I want to pay huge upfront costs and later get reimbursed (Which I do not have the huge up front costs to pay for).

Anyway, I know I've not been around here as much, nor on Facebook, and I've gotten several emails asking if I am OK, so I thought I'd post this as a response and to let people know I am alive and still sorta kicking.


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Originally posted to BFSkinner on Thu May 15, 2014 at 01:24 AM PDT.

Also republished by Unemployment Chronicles.

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