Well I haven't posted anything in a while and I want to start getting back into the swing of things again. We all have ups and downs and I guess I just needed a break for a bit. To be honest I haven't even had the television on much in the past few months except to watch Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. lately because I was so disheartened by how toxic politics has gotten. I understand policy disagreements, those are inevitable, but I don't understand hating someone, or getting angry at them because they think differently than I do about something. (Yeah I admit that there are people who can be jerks, but I prefer to not respond in like kind. I only get angry when certain lines are crossed and even then I let the person know that they've crossed a line and it would be best if the subject were dropped before it went any further; but that's just me)
So update I guess. I got a new psychiatrist and he took me off symbyax as it wasn't really helping all that much and, apparently, was one of the major causes of the massive weight gain I'd gone through. (I'd gotten up to 275lbs) We talked it over and he put me on 50mg of Topamax twice a day. Now the fun thing about that medication is that for the first week or so your stomach won't like you at all while you get used to it. In fact they start you at 25mg and move up to 50 so you get used to it better. Also Topamax can change they way things taste, especially soft drinks. With me it was ONLY soft drinks so I can't drink them any more (and I REALLY loved Mountain Dew Throwback BTW). My drink choices these days are limited to Milk, chocolate milk, water, sweet tea (Tradewinds brand is excellent btw), and Hawaiian Punch Polar Blast (I only have that once in a while because I really like it). So over the past three or four months I've gone down to about 247lbs :) . Go me huh? I've also started eating three meals a day, getting up for breakfast helps so I can take my medicine in the morning, and not snacking as much.
Second update: I lost my favorite uncle a few weeks ago. He was a good man, and was always glad to see me and my sister when the family came down to see him and the rest of my dad's family when we'd visit Nashville. He was a veteran of WWII and Vietnam. Served 28 years in the Army and only retired because they were going to send him back to Vietnam. I'm going to miss him, but I've done my mourning and I know I'll see him again one day.
Still seeing a counselor and still trying to come to terms with being transgendered. I go back and forth on it a lot, and I wish I could just be out and be done with it; but right now I can't. I sucks but I have to just hold on until I can make arrangements to do what I need to do about moving and making sure my family doesn't need me here.
Beyond that I'm still gaming :) still playing World of Warcraft, Starcraft II and Diablo III (all of which are fun), I may get Diablo III for the PS3 as well as the PC just so I have another game for the stupid thing. (Plus I hear the loot system in the console version is better). I'm exploring a few things that have been on my mind for a long time and it'll be interesting to see where they go. :)
I may try and slowly get back into things. Maybe get into the Daily Show and Colbert Report before anything else and see where that leads.
Anyway I'm glad to be back all.
May God bless you all. :)
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