Are there things that you haven't done that you imagine?
Are there things you have done that you regret?
Do you fear the life left you?
Do you fear a life made?
Are you luke-warm on the life that is?
It is funny, my psychology. I'm a revolutionary in my mind that makes less than acceptable compromises with my life. Quite the juxtoposition with my heroes.
I think there are a lot of us here like me.
We internalize the wrong of those things in our life that don't meet our expectations. And we have done it for almost 40 years [or millenia... who's to say].
We put it into our careers, or into our art, or into our families. We defer to any number of feel-good distractions...
And that train of thought is a lie too.
What really is the price of revolution? Can we do it while maintaining the illusions? What is revolution? Would any of the majority of this site, with kids, jobs, homes, retirements, survive that?
And here is my ultimate question. Can we ever achieve a radically egalitarian society? It is the only thing that drives my thought. It is the only thing that drives my music. It is the only thing that drives me to still live.
And I have to think that those of you with children share that vision for your children. And I have to think that within our culture of possession, that we all recognize the inequality and inhumanity of the structures that enable that very entitlement to 'possession'. And I have to hope that what we do, in our child rearing, our employment, our Sunday barbeques, or our art, strives for that recognition.
I hope that in whatever we do, we express the life we wish we lived, and come to peace with our regrets. Because between those two, is the not only the life we should have lived, but the life of homo sapiens.
Our life becomes our lives. We should above all, make them meaningful.