I am writing this diary for myself. I refuse to feel bad about it. I think I have written only one other diary in the couple of years I've been at DKOS.
I do a lot of reading. I do a lot of thinking. And today, I am doing a lot of feeling.
I remember the first time GW Bush came to my attention. I didn't even see his face, I was in the kitchen and the tv was on in the living room, and I heard his voice. he wasn't yet a president, and I didn't know who he was. But when I heard his voice I had(for a lack of a better term), a feeling of impending doom. I had some visceral reaction, and felt physically ill.
So now, several years later, here I sit, the sadness overwhelming me. The damage this administration has done to a country I love in six short years is nothing short of appalling. And the saddest part of it is that so many are still so blind, or they don't care, I can't tell which.
Usually when I come to DKOS I am heartened, to see how many people do care, and are actively seeking ways to put this shattered jar of a country back together. But today.... I just remember that day that I first heard that voice and knew somewhere deep in my heart that it was basically over.
I'd like nothing better than to come back to this diary in a couple of months and see that things are on the upswing, that I don't have to feel this way anymore. I'd like to come back to it after these weak-spined democrats have grown a pair and taken back the house and senate, after they have demanded paper ballots, and begun impeachment proceedings against this president. I'd like to come back to it after the country has mobilized against war for profit, against corruption, and against torture.
I'd like to come back to it after we have found an actual candidate for the 2008 elections, and not some weak kneed spineless wussy who's afraid to tell it like it is. I'd like to come back to it after the minimum wage has been raised, and a viable health care plan has been proposed.
My mom always told me that where there's life there's hope, and that is where DKOS always gives me hope. There is teeming life in the netroots, and in the democratic base. So as my mothers daughter, I refuse to give in. I refuse to shut up, and I refuse to accept that things will remain the same.
Now, on to a plan of ACTION!!!!! Because the other thing my mother always said, was when you want something done, do it yourself.