Hi all...this is my first diary, so please bear with me. I am having a sleepless night for a damn good reason. Ah shit, let me start at the beginning. I hate starting at beginnings, but shall do so for your sakes.
After the 2004 election, I pretty much swore off Republicans. For many reasons, the biggest of these being that they were asses. Heh. We had a Kerry/Edwards sign attached to our deck and someone ripped it down and destroyed it. I guess they only respect the rights of others when they are their rights. There were a few friends who just couldn't keep their mouths shut about John Kerry. I had made a solemn promise to myself not to say a word about Dumbya to any of my Repub. friends, but it seems they couldn't afford me the same courtesy. Well follow me and I promise I'll tell more.
I even had one lady, who up until election time I thought was quite sane, well...errr, she wasn't. She kept emailing all this made up crap about John Kerry, day after day after day. I politely emailed her back and said that we obviously had different political viewpoints, and since I was not pushing my opinion on her, could she please stop with the barrage of emails everyday. Well, if you think that worked you are as naive as I was. She didn't stop, I banned her, and it ruined the friendship. It wasn't a big loss.
I guess the thing that bothered me the most was the inability of these so called friends to shut the fuck up about it. I was not saying a damn word, but they just couldn't seem to keep their mouths shut. I assured them time and time again I was very comfortable voting for Kerry, he was my man, and to please let it go. Apparently, something in them just couldn't stop talking about how wonderful king george was and what a huge mistake I would be making voting for that vile John Kerry.
You can only imagine how much better it got after the election. I literally stopped talking to about 3 people that I had considered friends. But, I just couldn't relate to their hatred anymore. My life is better off without them I guess. Bush...the fucking uniter indeed.
None of that is the part that breaks my heart though. That comes now. See, I have been seeing this man that I was in love with for 7 years. We got along great, I considered him to be my soul mate. He wasn't a Republican, thank the gods and goddesses, but every now and again he would say something very unseemly, and I guess I would just try and blow it off. Ultimately I hoped my influence on him would rub off. Ha. Some of the things he said was that he was in support of the Iraq war, that he hated Arabs, and other disgusting stuff. He didn't say it often, and the funny thing is, he could also say just the opposite and be completely level headed about the entire thing. We decided it was best if we just didn't discuss politics, you know, keep the peace and all that. But no matter how much we tried, we ended up arguing about these issues. Torture..fine with him, after all, we may need valuable information someday. Oh god, I don't want to go through it all, suffice it to say, some of his ideas were archaic and cruel. He was not a cruel man though, he just grew up in the south and couldn't shake some of the fucked up ideas he had been brought up with.
Well, one day about a week ago, he called and announced he had met someone who thought more like him and that we were pretty much over. Alrighty then.
Another person lost because of George Fucking Bush. When he told me, I couldn't even breathe, and I think to some degree, i'm still in shock. Funny thing is, his first name is Kerry. Yeah, that helps...thanks a lot powers that be.
The saddest thing of all to me, is I care about the world and what is happening to it so much. If I cannot even convince those closest to me, and the one person I loved most in the world....what good can I do? The most ironic thing to me is before Bush, we never argued, hell...we never even talked politics. Clinton was so awesome, there was nothing to argue about! =)
So tonight Kos folk...I am indeed broken hearted. I expect I will be so for quite some time. I am more determined than ever to get these evil bastards out of office. You see, it's not just people in the war losing loved ones, it's all of us. He has divided us so deeply that we just cannot see past our differences anymore.
For the record..I still love him...and if he should find he ever needs me, i'll be here.