I have a couple of houses I own, that are broken in lots of ways. The infrastructure is questionable. The locals don't like me.
I have a little money that comes in from my family, thank god. But still, I live here, hiding.
I've been here ten years. I thought I had friends. I was wrong. I thought I could maybe find some friends here, if I would just follow people's advice, go knock on doors, try to make friends.
But there are no Kossacks in Carlsbad, far as I can tell. I'm about dying here, people. No Kossacks in Carlsbad?
Why aren't there any Kossacks in Carlsbad, New Mexico? Why do I have to sit here and type at the Tubes and and wonder; why aren't there any people writing at me here on Kos, about how the live here in Carlsbad, after these months I've written here?
Where is everybody?