I have been a hard-core Obama supporter. When others were complaining about his timidity, I was strongly defending him, a typical co-dependent, (but he HAD to compromise yada yada yada) forever consoling myself with the belief that next time, he'll do better, next time he'll stand strong, next time . . next time . . .next time . . .
I've been to this co-dependency dance before, divorced a husband years too late, and just now realized I'm doing it all over again. What will I do? Where will I go? I HAVE to stay with him, the alternative is so frightening. I'm too embarrassed to admit this isn't working out.
When I see recent photographs of Obama, I see a tired, beaten down man graying faster than I would have expected. It's the media's fault, they purposely run unflattering photographs of him. Wait, did I do it again? Would they have used that photograph if he'd just kicked some GOP butt?
I'm not sure I can summon the strength to defend him any more. Should he be primaried? No, that's stupid, it never works. It will make him look weaker, wait, what? Look weaker? Is that possible? Crap!
I understand compromise, really I do. I'm a realist, not an idealist, but dammit, give me something. Well, he did get the health care bill passed, Lilly Ledbetter, and lots of others. But that was ages ago in political years. All people want to talk about now is the economy and Americans have the attention span of a hyperactive 6-year old. And all those mean, ole wing-nut pundits tell horrible lies about him over and over and people believe them. What can he do? What CAN he do? Hell if I know anymore. But I do know from experience I can't will him to do something. So I'll have to. Maybe I need to start packing (again).