This is my 7th Sick Christmas. 7 years now of terminal, chronic illness, pills, hospitals and doctors. 7 years of accumulating bills for all of the all the aforementioned.
I am weaker than I was 7 years ago, unable to be without O2, cant walk any distances at all, and yet somehow much happier, or more contented than I have ever been on Christmas. EVER
Our kids are all at their in-laws for Christmas, so I have no dinner to cook, no present will be opened (Hubby and I exchanged last night) and my day will be quiet and restful.
Christmas and Birthdays for me have always been emotional, and yet this year .......
UPDATE: It is snowing, How perfect is that??
I do not feel the sadness that usually engulfs me during the holidays. I would not call my mood Jolly.
But I am not the depressed, over stressed, buying all the gifts for everyone, in our rather large extended family. Or Waiting and Waiting on him to buy for his family only to have to pay for one or two day shipping because he never "got around to it"
I am simply too sick to do all of that anymore. I have not been in the Mall or target, WalMart, etc etc etc.
I do not have enough gifts for my grand kids, but I intend to shop this week, since we will celebrate Family Xmas on New Years.
And to all of those Bills, doctors, technicians, bill collectors and banks:
Merry Chritmas
And a Merry Christmas to you too Kossacks, Have a great New Year