Joe Walsh kept popping into my mind this evening. His tune, "Life's Been Good To Me"
It has.
There have been moments, long ones, days, months, years, that life wasn't good. Some of that was not my fault, some of it was my choices.
"You don't know what you don't know"
For a long time I didn't know I deserved a good life. I didn't know that trying to control everything and everyone around me actually drove people away and left me lonely and abandoned.
There are things that have happened IRL lately that I've wanted to hand power over to others out of anger. I will not allow that to happen, for several reasons. And so I write tonight because I need to remember why.
When I allow anger to hang out in my mind I'm allowing the source of that anger to control a valuable resource, my mind, emotions, and my spirit.
Watching people I love be hurt by lies, power plays, greed and control tactics can set off anger easily for me. I have two people in my life that I love dearly who I have to watch be affected by others that want nothing but to cause chaos and hurt because they are selfish, controlling, manipulating people.
So I quit looking at their crap, yeah I have to cease and desist the judgment and focus on myself and how I can be a better person and give something to my world, not just take.
There's another another Joe Walsh song that tells my story, too. It summarizes why I have a life today and continue to learn how to live it with peace and acceptance, one day at a time.