I am sick. Literally sick. Sick to my stomach, as the saying goes. Physically feeling it in the pits of my bowels.
A sickness that comes when mere fear is not an enough of an emotion to express. When the cold starts at the bottom of your feet and rises slowly until it reaches the back of your neck and sends chills down your spine. When your hair stands on end.
When you realize that everything you love about your country- her history, her freedoms, her democracy, is being taken away right in front of your face.
If I could cry, I would. But I'm too sick.
How in God's name are republican governors and legislatures even being allowed to bring up these "let's slash public education, health centers, minimum wage, child labor laws, etc" bills, let alone succeed in getting them passed? Who are these people that after swearing to uphold the Constitution are now doing everything possible to destroy it? How do they sleep at night?
Because I can't. I want to stand on my roof as those brave souls in Iran did last year, and cry to my Lord, "Come help me!"
A whole bunch of mean and malicious people have taken over and I don't know what to do. I feel helpless, and I do not enjoy this loss of control. When I was ten someone killed my president and although I really didn't understand I understood a lot. I remember being scared.
When I was fifteen someone killed my hero and someone killed my hero and someone killed my heart. And I understood. I remember being scared.
Now someone is killing democracy and I'm scared and I don't understand.
Cutting education so Tom Cruise can pay $400 in property taxes just doesn't sound like looking after the general welfare of the people. Cutting services necessary for the general welfare of the people so Bank of America can exist tax free doesn't sound fiscally responsible. Removing regulations fought so hard to achieve to keep the citizens of this land safe so profits can triple does not sound morally strong.
The next generation, the one that will 'have to pay for the deficit' will be too ill, too uneducated and too broken to care.
Is this the country they wanted?