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So this is the latest installment in my weight loss journey.  I wrote this at the end of February after I had lost 250 pounds.  Things have slowed down for me considerably.  I'm losing slowly, almost too slowly for me--I am impatient by nature and, like Veruca Salt, I want it NOW.  

But, I'm dealing.  I have a new bike, and once the weather gets good enough, I'll be riding regularly.  So hopefully that will help a little.  So enjoy this latest installment, and I hope I can shed light on what it's like to be going through this for those that don't have to.

Dated February 23, 2011:

So, I haven't written in some time.  It's taken me quite a while to get to 250 pounds lost.  I was warned this would happen.  It seems I have hit a plateau.  And it's a plateau in several ways.

But first, some good news.  I managed to make the goal with a 6 pound loss in a week.  AND, my doctor took me of my diabetes medication.  I have to go on another medication to ensure I don't slip into insulin resistance, but my latest AC1 was 5.  Which is in the non-risk for diabetes range.  So we're going to see what happens.

Now on to my plateaus.

First, it's the obvious.  The body gets used to things and the paradigm has shifted, so things start to "settle"  Second, it's a mental thing as well.

I'm tired.

I hadn't realized how hard of a job this is.  My early success really boosted my confidence.  Which was probably the best thing for me starting this venture.  I have a tendency to need validation and instant results, and I sometimes get frustrated when that doesn't happen.  And that frustration can sometimes lead to bad things.  

So I had all this initial success.  And I kept making progress.

And now it's tougher to get significant progress.  I get frustrated with small losses.  I'm impatient. I'm realizing I was probably a bit naive and over-thrilled by my initial success to realize one slight fact:

This is the hardest thing I've done in my life so far.  Sure, there are other things that are more strenuous, require more manual labor, and other stuff, but this is a 24/7/365 process I have to deal with for the Rest. Of. My. Life.  When I reach my goal, and learn about maintenance strategies, it may get easier, but I KNOW I'm only a burger away from starting back on the slide.

And that's NOT an option.

But mainly it's hard.  Mentally hard.  This is requiring a level of focus I once knew pretty well.  Plus, this is the longest time I have focused on something big like this.  And my slipping focus is seeing me make some choices that aren't necessarily for the best.

Now, I'm not going back to how I was.  Nor have I changed my eating habits.  I'm still very balanced, and I'm eating all the right things.

I am snacking more, however.  But I'm not snacking on bad things.  I'm just snacking more than I should be doing.

And of course it's cold.  Which means I'm not going to the pool.  But at least I currently have half the money needed for a bike.  And I am definitely looking forward to riding it this spring.

But for now,  I guess I am in some sort of mental plateau.  Right now my habits are for a certain calorie level.  Now, as I am at this plateau, I recognize the need to slightly alter them, in order to "jump start" the metabolism again.  Can it be done?  Yes, it definitely can.

So now, it's time to take a deep breath, and slog on forward to the end.  Or to the Beginning.

Originally posted to zenbassoon on Sat Apr 16, 2011 at 11:13 AM PDT.

Also republished by WeeklyBUG and Weight Loss Kos.

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  •  Tip Jar (7+ / 0-)

    "Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." --M. L. King "You can't fix stupid" --Ron White

    by zenbassoon on Sat Apr 16, 2011 at 11:13:24 AM PDT

  •  Don't look at it as a bad thing. (2+ / 0-)
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    zenbassoon, mint julep

    You have lost weight and every day that you either:

    A. Stay the same.
    B. Lose a little more.

    is STILL a big success. Many people who lose weight gain it back. I had lost 15 lbs (I know not that much, but it was all I needed to lose.) then I was hit by a car last year and I gained it all back due to not being able to excercise and being horribly depressed about not being able to excercise.

    I have begun losing it again, and it's twice as hard now!

    I wish I could have just had a nice plateau.

    If you plateau for the rest of your life you will be a BIG BIG BIG success. You won't be one of the ones who gain it back.

    So don't be so hard on yourself. That's my 2 cents.

  •  Food, (1+ / 0-)
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    zenbassoon

    women, and sex. So many intriguing connections...

    Are you as turned on as I am?

    Hold the burgers, I'm backsliding to salami, help me, Lord :-)

    When the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace- Hendrix

    by Maori on Sat Apr 16, 2011 at 12:19:19 PM PDT

  •  Plateaus have always wrecked my diets (2+ / 0-)
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    zenbassoon, cassandra m

    I lose, oh, 16 or 20 of the 100 or so I need to lose.  And stop.  Totally.  Up the exercise, cut the food... doesn't help.  My body seems to go into overdrive to hang on to JUST where I am.  

    And you are right, it is exhausting.  I don't think normally weighted people have any idea how hard it is.  

    That you have lost the amount of weight you have is awe-inspiring.  I know you probably have more to go, but my gods, that's an impressive feat.

    190 used to be my "panic weight"  -- the weight at which the gloves came off and I really started paying attention to every morsel.  Then illness and a couple rounds of steroids (asthmatic bronchitis), anti-depressants with a side-effect of weight gain, and a hard pregnancy later, and I would be so happy to be within 20 pounds of that weight!

    "There isn't a way things should be. There's just what happens, and what we do." — Terry Pratchett (A Hat Full of Sky)

    by stormicats on Sun Apr 17, 2011 at 01:38:39 PM PDT

  •  I hit a plateau last summer (2+ / 0-)
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    cassandra m, zenbassoon

    in similar circumstances.  I lost 80 pounds in 10 months and I was giddy with success.  I gave myself a little room in my eating, and slowly some sugar started to creep back in.  I was keeping to my calorie limits, but the composition of my food changed away from protein and fiber and tilted toward more carbohydrates.

    I only lost about 10 pounds over the next three months and I was extremely frustrated.  I looked over my plan with my trainer, and he suggested I actually increase my calories, but make sure I got enough protein, fat and fiber.  I also cut out those fat-free desserts which are still full of sugar.

    My changes worked, although I am not losing weight as quickly as in the beginning.  I don't think I'll replicate the first success, but at least the weight is still trending down.

    Losing as much weight as you have is mentally exhausting.  I know that I think of food All. The. Time.  Not necessarily as craving food I can't have, but in planning my meals and snacks, building a list for the grocery store and working out what I can eat when I travel.  It's really irritating sometimes, but in the end it's worthwhile.  I'm happy to have to think about food so often if it means I keep my health and stay fit.

    Congratulations on your progress so far, and best of luck in keeping on track!

    "If one cannot enjoy reading a book over and over again, there is no use in reading it at all." — Oscar Wilde

    by chicagobama on Wed Apr 20, 2011 at 03:05:52 PM PDT

  •  Am On a Plateau Now (1+ / 0-)
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    zenbassoon

    Lost 25 since January and the scale hasn't moved in three weeks.  My best news is that I am three sizes smaller and spent part of last week clearing out closets and dressers of larger clothes AND rediscovering the stuff that I can wear again.  But I'm working hard at exercise (and getting up at 5AM to do it!) and working hard at controlling my intake.  Too much work for my scale to have just stopped moving.

    It is hard to keep focused and am not sure what changes I can make to jumpstart it all.  I diary every bite and am largely meeting my nutrition requirements.  Will still keep at it, but need a pay off soon!

    Thanks for posting on this, zenbassoon, I've been pretty obsessed over this for a week....

    We're casting a GTF Outta Here spell on Christine O'Donnell over at DelawareLiberal.net.

    by cassandra m on Thu Apr 21, 2011 at 11:25:49 AM PDT

  •  Tip'd Rec'd and Republished - WTG - n't (0+ / 0-)

    Verbal repetitive reinforced Bull S; is MSM weapon of mass destruction!

    by laserhaas on Tue Apr 26, 2011 at 08:40:15 AM PDT

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