It's 1:56 AM. I should be asleep. See, I've been trying to be healthier. Decent sleep habit. Better diet. Avoiding stressful thoughts. Ommm.....Ommmm...you know, that sort of stuff. But right now I have a tiny little four year old boy thrashing around for some unknown reason making sad and pained sounds, half asleep. He's settled down for the moment. I'm going to go ahead and guess the poor little guy is sick with something. Finally managed to get a milk sippy into him. That might do the trick long term.
But heck, I'd been having trouble sleeping myself.
More on that in a minute but first, check me out. See how svelte I am? No? Well fine. I'm not quite svelte yet. But I've lost just about 30 pounds since October. Just two more pounds and I will be technically and merely Overweight...down from the other O word. Rock on...
...for the most part I've been taking it easy, not over doing it. Trying to ease into a healthy, sustainably portioned diet. But tonight I'm having trouble sleeping, even without the sweet uncomfortable boy, because I'm HUNGRY as HELL. Hungry. As. Hell. Like, legs itching hungry. Like, can't think hungry. Maybe I'll grab a glass of milk to take the edge off.
It is strange, though. Ever since beginning this diet it's sort of become a hobby of its own. I've felt not entirely me. The brain all weird and linear feeling. Moody. But dammit...I'm gonna get through this once and for all. Gonna lose 50 pounds. My body...it tries to trick me. Like out of the blue it does things like this "HEY! Remember those yummy little cardamom cookies your friend made? Man those were good. Sweet and buttery and salty and so so so, so so so small. So small. Let's eat five pounds of them RIGHT NOW!"
Uh oh.......boy's whimpering again. Poor little guy.
Okay. He's quiet now.
Vegetables. I've been eating vegetables. That's been my strategy. Less milk. Less beer. Less bread. More vegetables. My reasoning is this.....of all the fad diets and all the versions of the USDA recommended diets everybody pretty much agrees on one thing, almost universally: Vegetables are good for you. Sure there's arguments about carbs or fats or carby fats and good fats and bad fats and special fat burning negative super anti-free-radical omega 3 fatty Vitamin E this and that....but the one unquestioned good is that leaves and such are definitely good for you.
So I'm going with that. The leaves. More leaves. I've managed to find veggies that are relatively cheap. Cabbage. I eat a lot of cabbage. A LOT of cabbage. Lots. I eat cabbage and lots of it.
Fortunately, I like cabbage. And so does my little 4 year old boy here, too. He loves cabbage. We sit down and love cabbage together.
I fry it. Shred it into thin shreds and fry it in a teaspoon of butter or olive oil till its soft and browned. Add some pepper or hot sauce. Leeks are good too. Onions make it nice and sweet. Add a couple of eggs over easy to the mount of cabbage in the morning.
I love that.
Rutabaga. I've also started to really like cubed butternut squash in the morning. Couple cups of cubed acorn squash, in a pan with butter and water...put a lid on on high heat for 10 minutes or so and it's soft and sweet and yummy and buttery. Mmmm...
There's a decent array of relatively cheap veggies out there. They're not nearly as calorie dense as rice and pasta...but that's sort of the point. Heaping mound of cabbage on a plate is all of 120 calories and fills the tummy for quite a while.
Anyway.....gonna grab a glass of milk and hit the hay. That boy seems to have finally settled down. Time for me to get my beauty rest.