Many suggested that I repost this diary during the day & I've done so. New dairy is here
As I sit here worried & unable to sleep, I find myself thinking about how much my life has changed over the past 4 years. Barring a financial miracle, my landlord is going to court Monday morning to evict me from the small duplex that I rent. There is very little food in the kitchen & hasn’t been for a while. Thankfully, there’s a big bag of dog food so the pups are fed.
Four years ago, I owned a house. I donated the maximum to the Obama campaign. I helped others on Daily Kos organize to feed Obama volunteers on various primary days. I bought a lot of pizza!
Maybe it’s not a great comparison but I find myself in a situation that I never thought was possible for me. I’m 57years old & never pondered the possibility of homelessness but that may be my future. I don’t think I’ve ever been more afraid in my life. Maybe that’s why I’m writing this.
So I guess you wonder how this happened . I’m not totally sure of the answer myself. I was tired of the rat race & started making purses & scarves & started selling them at shops & online. It wasn’t making me rich but I had a bit of savings to fall back on. I guess making a long story short – used all my savings & business slowed way down. I broke my wrist in 2 places & couldn't work for months. Eventually my house ended up in foreclosure and that’s how I ended up in a rental.
It’s hard to give up your dream & doing something you love (even when you’re not making any money) but I’ve been job hunting for a “real job” and have a couple of good possibilities. But it’s hard to feel hopeful for a better future when you don’t know if you’re going to have a place to live.
I will bring my rambling to an end. Hopefully sleep will come soon. Thanks to any who took the time to read this. All help & encouragement are welcome.
PS: For those who asked, I do have a Paypal account
firstname.lastname@example.orgThanks to all who have helped. I still have a very long ways to go but it's good to have this community supporting me.
If I don't respond to something, it's because I have extremely limited internet access. My own has been cut off & I'm depending on nearby wireless networks of which are few and very weak.
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