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Many suggested that I repost this diary during the day & I've done so.  New dairy is here
What a long strange trip it’s been – for the last 4 years

As I sit here worried & unable to sleep, I find myself thinking about how much my life has changed over the past 4 years.  Barring a financial miracle, my landlord is going to court Monday morning to evict me from the small duplex that I rent.  There is very little food in the kitchen & hasn’t been for a while.  Thankfully, there’s a big bag of dog food so the pups are fed.

Four years ago, I owned a house.  I donated the maximum to the Obama campaign.  I helped others on Daily Kos organize to feed Obama volunteers on various primary days.  I bought a lot of pizza!

Maybe it’s not a great comparison but I find myself in a situation that I never thought was possible for me.  I’m 57years old & never pondered the possibility of homelessness but that may be my future.  I don’t think I’ve ever been more afraid in my life.  Maybe that’s why I’m writing this.

So I guess you wonder how this happened .  I’m not totally sure of the answer myself.  I was tired of the rat race & started making purses & scarves & started selling them at shops & online.  It wasn’t making me rich but I had a bit of savings to fall back on.  I guess making a long story short – used all my savings & business slowed way down.  I broke my wrist in 2 places & couldn't work for months. Eventually my house ended up in foreclosure and that’s how I ended up in a rental.

It’s hard to give up your dream & doing something you love (even when you’re not making any money) but I’ve been job hunting for a “real job” and have a couple of good possibilities.  But it’s hard to feel hopeful for a better future when you don’t know if you’re going to have a place to live.

I will bring my rambling to an end.  Hopefully sleep will come soon.  Thanks to any who took the time to read this.  All help & encouragement are welcome.

Charlotte, NC

PS:  For those who asked, I do have a Paypal account
Thanks to all who have helped.  I still have a very long ways to go but it's good to have this community supporting me.

If I don't respond to something, it's because I have extremely limited internet access.  My own has been cut off & I'm depending on nearby wireless networks of which are few and very weak.

My website is here

Originally posted to Fineena on Sat Mar 24, 2012 at 10:53 PM PDT.

Also republished by Income Inequality Kos, Community Fundraisers, and Invisible People.

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