I believe I have finally been converted to Atheism.
It didn't take long. Before I was more Agnostic, like my mom. Still Pro-Choice.
Recently though, I've been thinking a lot about personal stance and the general stance. My general stance is Pro-Choice, all nine(technically ten) months of the pregnancy.
My personal stance is different though. What I mean by "personal" as in regarding only myself. My personal stance is Pro-Abortion. Some people have said it gets confusing but I'm not sure how. There are people who are personally Pro-Life, but are Pro-Choice for the rest of the population. So why can't I be Pro-Abortion for myself and still be Pro-Choice for everyone else?
I've decided that I fit the Anti-Natalist bill the best due to my views. I am all for population control(though obviously, the only way I can contribute is not produce any more children), I am pro-death with dignity, I am pro-letting a person commit suicide if they wish, and on and on. I am all for people having choices, no matter what others think.
The other day, I was discussing coma and brain death with my mom and our views are just about the same. If I am ever brain dead to the point of no return, just unplug the fucking machine! Yes, I know it will hurt my family and friends, but keeping me alive with no hope would hurt them even more. My mother asked the same of me.
The difference between my mom and I is while I'm an Atheist, she's Agnostic, but she's Agnostic in the sense of re-incarnation. She hopes there is something beyond the grave but not something like heaven.
In my personal opinion, I already consider living on Earth as metaphorical hell, if you really think about it. There's is suffering, greed, disasters, and so on and so forth. I feel that once we die, that's what would be considered heaven(to me). Once a human dies, they are at peace.
Now, this has been on my mind for a long time. I don't want to throw the word "spiritual" out there next to the word "atheist", because then most people think of the word "spiritual" as "religious". It gets confusing and frustrating. Some people have tried telling me that it's my "soul trying to get out to Jesus"(which just sounds fucking mental to me) and then my eyes just glaze over. Why? Because I don't give two fucks about religion. Yes, I've read the Bible more than once out of pure boredom, and after the first time, I knew that I do not want to follow something and "love" that is based literally on fearing the living fucking daylights out of it. No fucking thank you. So when I talk about spirituality, I want to say more of beauty and utter wonder of the universe and how it works.
Now, a few weeks ago, I encountered something I didn't think I'd ever see! Some complete jesus freak was actually asking how the sun is on fire when there's no air, why the air doesn't just get sucked out into space and how gravity actually works. He followed up with "only with the grace of God" in every statement. Now, I am taking a geology course right now, and even in middle school knew how the fuck all those things work, but trying to explain it to him was damn near impossible with big boy words, so I had to turn to fucking Google and look up CHILD fucking websites! Want to know what he did next? He actually said those things are impossible without God. I wont lie but my fiancee said my face was pretty fucking priceless when I read that statement. I also read his comments to my fiancee and he just blinked. A lot.
This sort of shit scares me. When people seriously think god made everything, and Earth came out of thin air in one fucking day, it is very fucking scary. I don't understand how people even function with such idiocy. UGHHH!
Anyway, this has been more of a rant-ish post.
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