I'm not feeling well,
as I write this,
and I've been struggling with what to write,
asking myself how I can write about grief,
when my moods have been quirky,
not logical.
But I suppose Spock already told us,
emotions are not logical.
But I need to organize my feelings;
I have obsessive compulsive personality disorder,
I feel the need to organize everything.
A special welcome
to anyone who is new to The Grieving Room.
We meet every Monday evening.
Whether your loss is recent,
or many years ago;
whether you have lost a person,
or a pet;
or even if the person you are "mourning" is still alive,
("pre-grief" can be a very lonely and confusing time),
you can come to this diary
and say
whatever you need to say.
Unlike a private journal,
here,
you know:
your words are read by people who share your values
and have been through their own hell.
There's no need to pretty it up
or tone it down.
It just is.
Here is the link to all the previous The Grieving Room diaries:
http://www.dailykos.com/...
More below the squiggly:
I'm stealing this concept
directly from the movie,
Mask.
Not
The Mask,
http://www.google.com/...
with Jim Carrey,
although that's another of my favorite movies,
especially since Jim Carrey,
like me,
is bi-polar,
(I call it tri-polar,
up,
down,
and angry).
The line from the movie,
as delivered by Jim Carrey,
that expresses so well
the up mood of us nut cases, is:
Sssssomebody sssstop me!
But no,
not that movie.
Mask,
http://www.google.com/...
starring Cher,
that's the movie I'm stealing from.
The line from the movie,
from Wikiquotes:
These things are good: ice cream and cake, a ride on a Harley, seeing monkeys on a tree, the rain on my tongue, and the sun shining on my face. These things are a drag: dust in my hair, holes in my shoes, no money in my pocket, and the sun shining on my face.
http://en.wikiquote.org/..._(film)
Here are my two lists:
These things,
sometimes,
make me feel pretty good:
1. fatty foods
2. sex
3. kisses, touching, and words, from my new bride, Tonia
4. working hard, and getting recognition for it
5. working hard, without recognition
6. writing something here at Daily Kos that gets a lot of tips, recs, and great comments full of praise
7. certain songs
8. thinking of Pam's smile
These things,
sometimes,
make me feel so depressed,
it scares me:
1. indigestion
2. having a day off work without a lot to do, feeling at loose ends
3. writing something here at Daily Kos that gets very little response of any kind
4. certain songs
5. thinking of Pam's smile