I answered a question on a comment from Troubador and just really thought about it and it hit me...This is insane. I can't remember a good day since
maybe February of last year. I actually thought of giving up the organization but I can't. I thought of walking away from my advocacy...but I can't. I thought of when was the last time I really did something for me and I couldn't remember. I thought of self indulgence and came up with "That's not right". I thought of the hard work and then thought, What am I really accomplishing"? I thought...why is my husband's health getting so much worse? Why do I fight for every single issue? Why is everything a battle royal to get anything done? Life is hard, I know. Raising kids in this economy is tough and sometimes I feel so bad for kids today.. When or how could I just get away for a day or two? I came up with no answers. I am not depressed....Well maybe a little.
The VA has a program for family but they are useless ..they cannot even help my husband. Pity party? Maybe. Nothing seems to change. I wake up and worry every single day.. And this song came to mind.
Maybe I just need a hug. The race is harder. The fight for justice is longer and I am just human.