That was Justice Sandra Day O'Connor's reply last night (The question starts at 15:48 - title quote at 16:08) to Rachel maddow's query about how it felt on inauguration day in 2001 when she and 4 other members of the Supreme Court effectively decided the Bush v. Gore presidential election.
Oh, you were finished, Sandra? Well, allow me to retort. I had some particularly memorable "special feelings" about that particular decision over which time has not been kind. How about nausea?
When I think of all the horrific decisions from an exttremely partisan and polarized court in which the Supreme Court made a decision of consequence and got it totally wrong This ranks as #2 behind Dred Scott in my opinion (I am not alone in that opinion). To break down the prevailing argument that you signed onto was that they state of Florida should have counted the votes in a timely fashion despite the interference of the Supreme Court into the state of Florida's election process forcing delays in counting, and that because they didn't get the votes counted they would have to use the current count regardless of whether it was accurate and reflected the will of the voting populsce.
But what puts the ruling in particulary egregious light is the decision that the opinion of the Court would not become a precedent. In other words, if a future Gore were winning they could rule it the other way, Just to let us know that the outcome was the important thing, not the due process.
That really made me feel like vomiting. How about hopelessness? The at feeling I had that our efforts didn't mean a rats ass to the SC. They really put the Lombardi stomp on any feeling of fairness.
How about disillusionment? My withering faith in the justice meted out by the Supreme Court was dashed. And you get no special feeling? It seems to me that you must have felt impunity.
That's a feeling you shared with Justice Taney.