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Well, not really, but yes, really.  I've sort of developed a theme with these diaries.  But I've found this to be a way to get stuff out, without paying for a therapist's new stable of polo ponies.  

Currently, I'm sitting in the Emergency room at the hospital waiting while my father is being checked out.  He's having blood in his urine and abdominal pain.  For those again just tuning in, my mother passed away (his wife of 55 years) back on February 24, followed by the worst funeral, ever.

It seems like it's a urinary tract infection, but it's a waiting game at the moment.  It's been a bit of a roller coaster this month.  That's partially why it's been almost a month since I've written anything.

My fear is right now, if something happens, that's it...I am alone, with little to no support, no income, and no idea what to do.  I dropped off the grid, a while back after I lost my job, moved back to Texas (yuk), and couldn't find any work other than very occasional house/pet sitting for a friend in Central Texas.  I have decided that, if the worst happens, which isn't unexpected, as my father's 83, I will NOT stay in Texas.  It was barely tolerable when I left, but it's unbelievably bad now, even though I live in Houston.  I think living in San Francisco from 2001-2007 decreased my tolerance for red states.  

So, as I sit, I here waiting I decided to try a plea for some kind of help here at KOS.  I got a lot of nice support with the last diary (save one jackass comment), so I thought I'd throw this out there with the hope of getting some kind of lifeline.

FYI, I was chyron graphics person at several major stations.  That's been most of my work life.  Then is got automated, and I got squeezed out, and any openings were few and far between, not to mention the sharp right turn the media has taken over the last 20+ years, even in SF.

For the moment, that's looks like I might just be able to take my father home in a few hours, but time will tell.  But I need to be proactive here, and look at my soon-to-come future.  I'm hoping fellow KOSsacks might be able to help or at least throw some positive vibes my way.

Will update with new info as the situation warrants.

4:33 PM PT: UPDATE:  It's a kidney stone with a lite urinary tract infection.  Not sure what they're going to do next.  And the poor little doggie is home all alone right now.  I hate to see what he's done whenever we get back.

Sun Mar 31, 2013 at 9:04 AM PT: Well, back  again.  I have to force him to talk to the nurses to get anything done.   But it seems not some time today, he's going to have to have some surgery this afternoon.  I just hope this all works out okay for everyone involved.

Sun Mar 31, 2013 at 6:08 PM PT: He;s had the surgery, come through fine, but will have to get the stone taken care of with an out-patient appointment with the urologist.  He may be out tomorrow evening.  Thanks to those that read this and commented.  I;m just going to look at this as a preview of things to come.

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  •  Tip Jar (10+ / 0-)

    I'm not crazy, I've just been in a very bad mood for 40 years!

    by liberalagogo on Sat Mar 30, 2013 at 04:05:28 PM PDT

  •  I hope your father is ok, you have been a good son (6+ / 0-)

    to be there for him at his advanced age and with medical problems.  Is there any support from some service for you there?  Try to write again if you can, it is usually good to tell what's happening so you don't feel so alone and maybe others can help with support or understanding or new ideas.  Hang in there, everything changes and moves forward.  I'm sorry to hear some person on KOS was so insensitive.

  •  You've had an especially rough time, (4+ / 0-)

    as so many are having now, and also face the bigotry and social isolation dilemma which makes it all worse.

    You hit a chord with many here as evidenced by the fact that your two diaries were on the rec list with lots of comments.  They were very honest portrayals of the struggles and conflicts that a good many are facing today or fear they may be facing soon if there aren't major changes in the battle between economic malfeasances and its created austerity as opposed to job creation and humanitarian and democratic values.

    I'm thankful that there are so many people here who understand and individuals who share their stories to bring the consequences of abstractions down to the individual, human level.  

    More: Some men think the Earth is round, others think it flat; it is a matter capable of question. But if it is flat, will the King's command make it round? And if it is round, will the King's command flatten it?

    by blueoasis on Sat Mar 30, 2013 at 04:44:31 PM PDT

    •  Appreciate it (3+ / 0-)
      Recommended by:
      blueoasis, glorificus, greengemini

      I was honestly surprised at some of the praise of the pr.evious 2 diaries, and wasn't sure how I was going to top them...:)

      But it's not about that, I know.  I don';t expect to get much praise or recs for this one.  The others more ore less seemed to touch a shared experience for a lot of people.  

      This one is just a way for me to keep busy and help me feel a little less alone.  Plus a cry for help.  :)

      I'm not crazy, I've just been in a very bad mood for 40 years!

      by liberalagogo on Sat Mar 30, 2013 at 05:02:41 PM PDT

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  •  hang in there - it will get better. i know it's (2+ / 0-)
    Recommended by:
    liberalagogo, srkp23

    hard right now to see that, but it will be better...

    and, you always have us, here at the great orange...  

    here's hoping for a brighter morning...

    EdriesShop Is it kind? is it true? is it necessary?

    by edrie on Sat Mar 30, 2013 at 10:29:21 PM PDT

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