I didn't expect that many replies to my first entry. O.K. I will continue with this experiment. It is something like stream of consciousness meets waking dream.
I have been in transition all of my adult life and half of my childhood. I went into foster care when I was nine with my younger brother and sister. I was adopted at 16. Why is any of this relevant to you? Maybe it isn't. No one is forcing you to read this so, if you are bored or irritated after reading the first few sentences here, you might want to bail.
I am typing this on a library computer so if I end this entry unceremoniously it's due to the fact that someone else signed up and I have been given a two minute warning to sign out. O.K. back to my tale of woe. Right. Adoption, blah,blah,blah.
I mention all of that because I don't know if I travel because I want to or because I have to at this point. Have I been running all of my life from the pain of a loss I can never recover? Maybe I was just forced to see through the fundamental lie of industrialized civilization at such an early age that no matter how much Kool-Aid I drink, I can't seem to kill off the nagging suspicion that all of this is terribly wrong or at least terribly wrong for me.
What is the fundamental lie of industrialized civilization you ask? It is something subtle and all-pervading. It is the pit in your stomach when you leave your small child alone for eight hours with a day care worker that resembles Jabba-The-Hut ( both in appearance and demeanor). The lie is buying one organic apple for $3,987. The lie is working a job that drains your life force just slowly enough that you don't notice it and just fast enough that you will never escape. The lie is teflon. Let's all stop kidding ourselves and get into the guts of it. The lie is us.
I am witness to my own demise. Dead, but well-preserved in the formaldehyde of societal acceptance. I challenge you and I challenge myself to dream the dream we most fear. I fear it is our only hope.
"A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality." -Yoko Ono