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Yesterday was my birthday. I am now 46. I am not celebrating.
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I'm pretty much all alone. No real friends or anyone close to me and at this point no really way to improve that. Trying to actually start a circle of friends/family at this stage just seems impossible.
I've never had a real relationship. My own fault, I let cowardice win out. My own loner tendencies had a hand in it as well, but that does not change the fact that at this point who would want to deal with someone who is just starting out?
My career prospects are nil. I am really not happy in my current position (horrible new manager has a large part of that). I need to get away from the sales/retail aspect but that's all I have. I worked my ass off for Masters but without any relevant experience it seems to be nothing but a piece of paper.
Everywhere I see evidence of the impossibility of improving my situation:
The constant barrage of stories talking about how people my age are being downsized and age discrimination making finding a job impossible -- I expect someone to take a chance on me?
I recently had to renew my life insurance license and so many of the continuing education credits dealt with Long Term Care needs; keep obsessing on what will happen to me when my body weakens and I have no one to help me through it.
I just see my future as old, lonely, and broke. At best, I will be moldering away in some nursing home, wasting away because I am unable to get out and do anything. At worst, I will be like homeless old people I see, carrying all their belongings with them because they cannot leave them in the shelter.
Happy Fucking Birthday to me.