It looks like we are living with people who want lots of us dead. Tonight's budget victory for them is a death warrant for so very many. I don't know if anyone can calculate the numbers but it seems clear that they want people dead. I don't know about you but I feel very uncomfortable knowing what they want.
Somehow they seem to be able to deny this and see it as a positive move in their other world. My world and theirs are so far apart that even the notion of sanity is unable to frame the difference.
As a kid in the late 1930s and on I was shown a world far away where people did unbelievable things to other people. I have never understood how it could happen. It seems like I am living in a new version of those times and once again I can not understand how it can be happening.
Read on below if you want to see more of my reaction to this unbelievable event.
I live in a community that is about 60% like them. Long ago I stopped trying to talk to "them" because it made my head spin in wonder. I learned a lot from them. I learned that the notion of truth is a useless fiction. The word "truth" from their mouths is whatever they believe. So many of our institutions, churches and the press to name two, give them all they need to feel that what they believe is true.
Then there is the self righteousness. Somehow they have become twisted enough to talk about their wonderful religion as if it were a force for good. Not only that, if you want to help others and want to require that those who benefit from the society pay their fair share, somehow you are evil.
I could go on but you know what I am talking about.
Meanwhile I have a lingering fear. My incomplete knowledge of the history of the times I was growing up tells me that there were people like us back then who fought against people like them in a democratic system not that much unlike ours. They lost. The same kind of people in Israel just lost again. What is it I am supposed to know that I don't that will tell me it is not happening here and now?
My emails are suddenly stuffed with dire messages from the various democratic party agencies asking for money to stop them. How? Am I really supposed to believe it is that simple? What about the people who vote for these murderous servants of the oligarchy? How much do I have to contribute to insure that we will not watch their masters buy the government again?
My mind is unable to put the reality I see aside. These are very bad times. I have been writing about Global Warming and pollution and agriculture almost to distract myself from this other ugly stuff. Tonight I had to face the reality of what we are up against.
Without help for my health care I am not long for this world. So very very many people around me are far worse off. They also lack food and other needs and are working two or three jobs. I can't help them. I have to watch. Oddly many of them elected these people who are doing them in. Somehow they have taken on their situation as punishment for being bad in some way their church has dictated.
I have to go to the doctor tomorrow. It will be covered. For how long? And why must we live under the threat of it ending? It doesn't make any sense to me. Can someone explain it all to me?