God I feel Low
Tue May 13, 2008 at 01:34:08 AM PDT
I am sitting in a crappy barracks room, listening to the bass from someone elses music down the hall. I work 12 hours a day pushing paper, and I do it in the Army, which just adds to the amount of BS I deal with. My room is about 6 foot by 15 ish, and I dont hang anything on the walls, just cause if I have to move, I dont want to deal with taking everything down.
My job is also very stressful. I cant get anything wrong, bad things will happen to me and to others if I do. There is lots of scrutiny, and quality checking.
Sometimes the stress and strain get me in a depressed mood and I think about everything that is wrong in my life and in this world.
One thing keeps me from going insane. Obama is out there. I think about all the shitty stories I hear coming from Iraq and Afghanistan, and we're going to elect a guy who was against these moronic ideas from the start.
I need to know that right now. It really helps. In fact I have placed so much hope and invested so much of myself in defending him, I really don't know how I would react if he lost this nomination. Which has me thinking, putting myself in a Hillary supporters place.
This has been one rediculously long primary, and we are not even close to the general election yet. I read MyDD, Hillaryis44, stuff like that and I think "how can they be so insane?", "How can they cling to such flimsy chances?". I know the answer now, she is where they see the end of this. Of Bush, of the GOP economy, of Iraq, of shitty HMO managed healthcare. It's how they visualize the way out.
To paraphrase Malcolm X; We think they are for Hillary, They think we are for Obama, but that isn't so. We are both for Victory. We are both for Hope. We think that Obama will bring us both. They think that Hillary will bring them the same.
There has been alot of shit slinging in this election. We have torn each other down. Time to look ahead, at the folk who have taken so much from us, are still taking so much. We all Hope. I hope we get pissed. I hope we shake the Bush and Cheney and McCain folk to their very core.
