If I could, I would with no question repeat the entire year I was 16.
That was the year I was outted, and had a horrible time of it. I came out before I in fact knew who I was, and in so doing engaged in a lot of stupid, reckless behavior, cost myself a dear friendship and ended up attempting to kill myself. Because I messed up my coming out when I was not ready I had a lot of later life experiences that I was not prepared to deal with. I thought, since I was young and stupid, that I had to be gay, it was the only thing to be if I was not straight. I knew I was attracted to fellow students, mostly male, but I stomped down on all the attractions that I had to women….why? Because I let others, not myself, dictate to me (This was in the mid 80s) that there was no such thing as Bisexual.
It took me decades, because of this, to reform friendships I lost and to realize that yes I was Bisexual and there was nothing wrong with me. I STILL though every so often feel bad because I am Bisexual and how society at large, and even some fellow gay folks, view Bisexuality.
Had I come out when I was ready I could have saved myself a lot of trauma, uncertainty, and not strained friendships.
How about you? Is there a year that you would like to relive that you would know then that you know now?
P.S. I know this is a question diary but I have thought it over and I cannot see how saying yes or no to this question could possibly jeopardize credit or whatever security, etc., so I feel safe in asking it.