an inherently good person stays stuck in a jail that he can't get out of because no one knows how to relate to the person. That person gets more and more wrecked.
We are pretty much in a broken cycle unless Elizabeth Warren becomes president or a huge uprising results.
I initially was misdiagnosed as ADHD because my dad spoiled me with coke and made me hyperactive. They didn't catch post traumatic stress disorder in me due to my dad's violent alcoholism and verbal abuse in the house. My extremely strong abilities in math, science, piano, choir, dancing Also, ADHD probably was thought of as "safer". It makes me mad that people react the way they react and not realize what someone is going through They blamed my fear of thunderstorms on me, saying "I am a baby and so immature", making me even more anxious. Everything was my fault. Because I wasn't truly loved and cared for (my mom and brother did the best they could under difficult circumstances but I had trouble reading that and understanding their emotional reactions towards me), I grew cold and emotionless. Asperger's locks your good self in. I was bullied and tormented in every way possible and socially rejected most of the time. I had few friends (even though in my heart I am a very extroverted person and love to talk about anything). Luckily, I was protected by my guidance counselor and assistant principal who protected me from kids who wanted to have me expelled from school. I was viewed as a threat to society. I still struggle sometimes not to take criticism or misread people the wrong way and I can still misread people's intentions often such as when there is spontaneous joking around and touching.
That is why I would misread people who were always negative or brutally honest such as Dan Choi or bobswern etc. I thought you reacted to President Obama because you didn't like him. It was his policies. I acknowledge I was wrong and that Obama has governed as a corporatist (even though republicans have given him a hard time). I had trouble seeing and understanding why it was true. I am sorry I reacted the way I did to those who were always skeptical or harshly critical of him.
Back to my story, luckily, my mom had very high quality insurance and ADHD kept me on my parent's plan. I have been able to afford therapy this past semester to start the healing process. I kept everything a secret till I opened to a roommate who had the heart of my brother but understood me better. I still did above the class average in a very challenging independent case based learning curriculum and have received good reviews from my groups. I have come a long way in making friends and relating to people in person. .
No good person deserves suffering. The way society has tended towards our mental health but the bad guys get everything. It is wrong. The individual only has control over so much. You can't control the way you were born. You can't control genetics or the weather. You can't control what other people do (especially politicians owned by the evil moneyed interests).
I can relate to so many people. This is why I want to do neurology so people don't have to go through what I went through and continue to advocate for Elizabeth Warren and the people who want the world to be a better place. We have lost too many good people and our poor planet has a very thin ground at best to be "tolerably habitable"