I can't bear it any longer

Too much empathy?  Maybe so.

I read of Arar's torture in Syria.  How he heard babies crying, prisoners screaming.  

I read that our country sent people to Uzbekistan to be tortured, that Uzbekistan boils people alive.

I read that the Cabinet is filled with people who advocate torture, that the CIA is being purged of all those who disagree with this, and that the ghost detainees may well be executed.

I'm sitting here in tears.  I've written to everyone I know.  I've written my representatives.  I've written the White House.  I've written on my LJ, I've sent emails to everyone I know begging them to write their representatives.

I just can't stand it that so much evil is being done in the name of the US.  I can't make it stop.  I'm having panic attacks daily, and it's harder and harder to go on with life knowing that this is happening.

How can I go to work each day knowing that an innocent man is being tortured in Syria in my name?  How can I enjoy anything knowing that an innocent woman is begging for her child to be fed, and she's imprisoned in my name?  I can't disconnect, and I can't make it stop.

How do you go about normal life when so many have had theirs taken from them because of you?