Something i wrote last night.
1:10 AM
I never thought my life would lead me here. The need for change is so powerful. I asked everyone what they hoped for in 2004.
Brian: I want to be able to fly my flag again without being called a Republican, because I love my country.
Kathy: I want to be proud to be an American again.
Me: I want a President I can be proud of, one I can stand behind.
And so on and so forth. Seriously, the energy was just ridiculous. And I know that energy is going to translate into really hard work tomorrow. We're all busting our ass for Dean, not just for Dean, but for us. This is for my kids, this is for Kathy's son. This is much bigger than me and Michiana and Notre Dame, this is about the direction of our country. This is a turning point, and this is why I am in Iowa right now. I feel so lucky to be in the company of such wonderful, strong, passionate and knowledgeable people who are so committed to change. These people are really a blessing. Mom used to talk (well, still does!) about blessings in her life, and I didn't understand this until now. These people are a blessing. I am so lucky to have them here and to learn from them. I am so lucky to be here in Iowa, to have the example of all these people (from San Antonio! New Jersey! TOKYO!). I am so blessed, so thankful. I hope I can live up to their expectations of me. I hope my generation can get its collective act together.
Kathy says that she can get me to Dean tomorrow. She says "Stick with me and you'll meet him. I guarantee it." I'm going to wear a button that has her son on it. Hers has Dean's autograph on the back. I decided that if I get to shake his hand, I'm going to say this:
"Doctor, I trust in you and believe in you so much that it's scaring me."
Because it seems like I shouldn't be this trusting. I shouldn't have this much faith in a politician. Kathy says he's the real deal and I believe her too. It just seems like we have too much passion to be wrong. I love these people and this cause too much to be wrong, to be faulty. I didn't come this far for a farce, for a faker, for a regular politician. It just seems like Dean is something different, something real, something too good to be true. But it is true. It has to be true. And I believe in it, whatever the hell it is.