I grew up in an evangelical "church"
I put it in quotes because church is a misnomer. It was a cult. Straight up a doomsday cult. I was taught that there were these evil people who believed in an evil religion called "evolutionism" and that they were monsters who needed to die.
I was taught that their allies were another religion called the "gay agenda" who were monsters that would hurt me and who needed to die.
I was taught that I should be a warrior for Christ and should be willing to kill these people without hesitation because they were trying to kill me.
Problem was I had these feelings where I was what my mother called... "sensitive"
What she meant was I was queer as a 3 dollar bill.
Which of course meant I was one of the enemy.
My folks still don't accept that I'm bisexual, they still deadname my trans husband. They still vote for the people who want to kill me and still go to the church that wants to kill me but hey, love the sinner hate the sin!
I recently had a comment hidden because I said Christians are monsters.
I was speaking from a place of pain. Christians are what haunt my nightmares and my daily fears because "good Christians" are the people working to destroy my marriage and throw my children into the abusive as hell foster care system.
So yes, I'm afraid of Christians. I'm fuckin terrified of y'all. I've never met one who hasn't tried to hurt me. Sorry not sorry that I said what I felt about it.