This is a story that I hope will help someone somewhere. Here is the link to the back story.
I was crying almost all the time, and I felt so vulnerable. I could not eat because everything tasted too strong or the texture made me feel sick. I would think about the house payment and the fact that we had no income and start to feel symptoms again. I called my parents and they just thought I was upset over the job loss. They were not digesting the fact that something more was terribly wrong. I was the strong one. I could cope with anything. Nothing could stop me when I was fired up. They just could not believe that I was unable to be a functioning person, they tried to talk me through it logically. It didn't work at all.
I tried to go to work, but everything that had used to be easy was overwhelming me to the point of getting that feeling again. I thought perhaps focusing on work would help me feel better. I was so wrong.
It was time to enlist a professional.
This is a very personal story. I only tell it here because if it helps one person, then it was worth recounting in detail.
It feels like there has been so much death, and it only makes me want to live better.
I am discombobulated and my heart aches today. I will say goodbye to a life cut short this week. My sadness for her is beyond the lost life, but also the skewed and distorted way the world presented itself to her. She had little chance of success, but she did one thing that will outlive her and be her lasting legacy. Her son.
This is a mournful rant about how beautiful women are treated as objects by most men, and like whores by most women. Move along if you don't like it. Names have been changed to protect privacy.
I want to tell you what an amazing community we have here when we step up to help one of our own in true hardship.
I was reading a diary the other day about our own Richard Myers of Flush Rush Fame and his family being in trouble.
I went on to understand that I live within driving distance to his home and I agreed to go and make sure that this was a real address with Richard's family. I wrote about my experience and posted a diary here telling of Candy Myers and her son Randy.
I read about Richard Myers sudden passing and it struck me. I was struck by the fragility of life. I have read Richard's diaries and I thought of what he must have been like and what his family must be going through.
Then I read a heartbreaking diary this morning that was posted last night here. I live close enough that I thought I would take a cleaning/laundry day and change track. I drove the 25-30 minutes to see Candy and see what sort of needs she has.
I found the place easily enough and went up to the trailer door. I knocked a couple of times and a dog came out of the back doggie door to see who was knocking, but otherwise no answer. Just as I was leaving a car pulled into the driveway and Candy and her friend Tina were just coming home.
Talking Points Memo has broken this story as far as I can tell. Scott Brown had asked for "unprecedented" demands.
Relax, I just need your itchy "send" fingers. Won't you help me?
Colorado had its March Against the War on Women. We had a great turnout from all over the state. I put together a photo diary here.
I created a tongue in cheek response to the war on women with a flash mob. The video has received over 1200 hits in 24 hours. My hope is that it will go viral.
I need my fellow Kossacks help. I need you to watch this, email it, Facebook it, Tweet it, Tumblr it, get it out into cyber land as far and as wide as you can.
You can see by my history here that I rarely write diaries at all, because I find that I rarely have anything wonderful to contribute. I hope this is something worth watching and passing along.
To those that seek to control women's reproductive healthcare, while they abandon the children we bear.
This is my contribution to the fight against the war on women. I had no idea how hard this would be, but I put my furor to work putting together a flash mob.
What is it when you have a massive concerted effort to make it almost impossible for the POTUS to get anything accomplished and he still manages to accomplish so much?
You get a whiny little snivel from Rush Limbaugh that he is the most delusional POTUS ever.
It is hysterically funny. The grasping and gasping he does to explain how this could be.
On April 28th, on a beautiful day at 10:00am, people gathered from the four corners of Colorado to protest against the War on Women.
It was a grassroots led campaign that was the idea of a woman in Michigan. This is the uproar from women angry at the policies and legislation being proposed all over the United States. Colorado is the home of Focus on the Family. The first personhood amendment was brought here for testing. There is a good chance that we will have another one on our ballot this coming November.
These legislators do not know what they have awakened here. It has reached across the aisle to women of all political stripes and faiths. We are Coloradans and we do not sit quietly while being attacked in legislatures all across this great country. We are patriots and we are angry. We are women and the men that love them.
Follow me below the Kos croissant to see what a great day it was.
WARNING PHOTO HEAVY
When I read dairies like the one The Nephew wrote, I start to imagine sending these corporate persons bills from my household for nefarious charges. I can make an invoice in Microsoft Word easy. They even have templates you can adapt.
Let's play that game....below the squiggle