I'm going to try and tell this by the mentality I had at these times so bare with me. I realize that it sounds strange now but this is how I saw the world and sometimes still do.
I'm not really certain how to put this down into words but I'm going to try my best please understand that I don't often make dairies. I've spent my whole life dealing with the difficulties that come with being an autistic person. I was diagnosed with Aspergers at roughly 10 years old but I didn't personally accept it then because I felt perfectly normal and happy. When my mother said I was autistic and would have to take some special class from now on and ride the short bus I cried and said no! I walked the two blocks home by foot rather than ride a bus that everyone I had ever known used has a joke to call people stupid and ugly. If you haven't guessed it was the short bus and to ride that bus would be a public admission that I was wrong somehow and mentally deficit.
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