If you didn't read my diary of yesterday explaining what I am doing and why, then go
here. Thought I'd post an update here for those who were interested yesterday.
I can't begin to tell you how miserable I feel right now. I feel all jittery, irritable beyond all human comprehension (I've been staying away from the comments threads as much as possible today so I don't go pop-bang at anyone), and my head feels like 40,000 leprechauns are dancing the jitterbug inside my skull.
I broke down twice today and bummed two cigarettes. It was extra hard because one was a Parliament and one was a Camel...my two brands that I smoke. I felt bad, but I'm surprised I'm doing this well. I've kept my vow not to give them one goddamn dime of mine anymore. I even filled up my Subaru with fuel today and didn't buy a pack. God, the temptation was strong.
I've been drinking coffee like nuts today, as an attempted substitute, so that likely contributes to the jitters. In any event, I'm gonna try and get some sleep soon and see how tomorrow goes. Be safe and well, all.