After all, I've got two kids, and I'm married. Although I don't plan on having any more children, if I were to get pregnant it certainly wouldn't be the end of the world, right?
Well, all of that changed this week...
Of course I never went so far as to make the ultimate dissconnect and vote against my best interests, but really, my apapthy level when it came to the abortion debate was increasing. I was willing to offer my verbal support, backed up by my vote, but little else.
Then, a few months ago, my husband and I seperated. And a week ago, I found myself having to do something I hadn't done in over a decade: insure that I wasn't going to get pregnant by insisting on birth control. Yep, I got back in the game and made a choice to spend the night with someone. <gasp> That's right; I had casual sex. And yes, of course I used protection.
My mind has swirled with "what if's" today as I listen to to the Alito confirmation hearings. What if I suddenly found myself pregnant? The scenario that didn't seem too terribly tragic as a married woman now took on a whole new meaning.
Well, I have to say, my first instict was one of sheer panic. Then thankfullness. Thanks to timing, abortion would still be an accessable choice for me. And because I'm just posing a paranoid hypothetical here, I'm lucky that I won't really have to make that choice....
But the point is, women who are like I was are all over the country, not even paying attention to the Alito hearings, because they can't see how it affects thier own life. Never mind the fact that I have TWO young daughters, it really took this new PERSONAL situation for me to reconnect with the issue and it's importance for all women.
I simply can't imagine and America where my choice would be taken away. Where I, a single-mother of two would be FORCED to have an illegal aborition or have a child that I don't want. <Shudder> And in Alito's world, I would have to track down the father of this child and ASK HIS PERMISSION first!
Front lines.....I hope there's room for one more in your ranks, even if I'm a little late to the fight.