In my last few weeks of working for ACORN I couldn't shake the feeling I'd walked into an X-files episode. It started with driving further an further to find unregistered voters (which was something I advocated), and for some odd reason the area's tended to remind me of scenes in the X-files (especially when the weather was grayish or rainy), but it ended when "the Men in Black" walked into our office, not too long ago.
We were told by higher-ups to do certain things which didn't make sense given our goal of getting Obama elected. I objected, but we had our orders and no one in our office had the authority to countermand them, even if they'd like to. I started questioning the motives of some people around me. I trusted some people, who I'd worked with for years, but not others. Everyone was stressed out and exhausted. I confided in one of the community organizers I worked with, and he told me that if we couldn't trust each other, we were letting them win. I wish I could say he was right.
I conducted my own private investigation into people I suspected of being Republican spies and saboteurs, on the logic that if I could expose them I could stop them. What I found is that evidence had most likely been erased; welcome the X-file of American politics. In the end these people's actions spoke for themselves.
There was a calm before the storm, a point where I started wondering if it was just me losing my mind to paranoia. Once I'd almost convinced myself of that, shit hit the fan. That's when "the Men in Black" showed up, and when they raided our office in Nevada. I wish I could say I was surprised, but I wasn't overly so. The last time I was in the office I couldn't help saying "I told you so", because it turns out I was right, about almost everything. It really sucks when your most paranoid hunches turn out to be true.
I think I did everything right, I warned them. I did everything in my power to prevent this mess, but it's blown up anyway. So here I am writing cryptic diaries about what I may or may not know. Don't ask me the details, please, I'm not at liberty to discuss them.