Yesterday we found out that my husband of 25 years has prostate cancer and at the moment I am feeling overwhelmed with worry and fear.
I hope you all will bear with me, normally I just read and comment, but I need to just put this out there. Maybe someone out who is farther along on this journey could share insight into what is ahead for us.
I am depressed and sad.
I know this is my initial reaction and as we go though this I hope that I will be able to support my husband emotionally since I'm pretty sure he is feeling worse then me.
But I am a major worrywart.
I am scared to death that even with insurance we will end up with bills we will never be able to pay.
I worry that his employer will lay him off during his treatment.
I am overwhelmed with the decisions we will be making in the next few weeks, the ton of information out there and the fact that I know without a doubt we will have to fight our health insurance company every step of the way to get the correct treatment for him...not just the one they prefer.
I know that if we lived in a country with Universal Health Care that at least the worries about his care and access to treatment would not be the ones looming in my brain.
I worry about our son whom my husband does not want to burden with this news until after Christmas. The only person our teen has ever known with cancer was another homeschooling mom we had known for years and she passed away in May.
I worry that I am not strong enough for this.
I worry that he will die.
He worries about our future sex life.
My husband is only 48 and the cancer has been caught early. He has a good chance of beating this. I do know that I will be forever grateful to our family Dr. who decided during a routine office visit to do a PSA test along with his colesterol test.
Please guys go get that PSA test today.
Don't put it off any longer.
UPDATE:
I just want to thank all of you for your kind thoughts and the information you have provided.
Thank you so much!