I'm admittedly unstable, though I'm really smart. I occasionally get pasted and post diaries here, and I don't even remember them until I go back and read them.
With trepidation.
But still, still. I always come back. Y'all scare me, there are so many of you, and so many of you are so much! So amazing. I know this sounds dumb, but I really do get overwhelmed by people who blog here.
And always, every time, it's not "We hate you, Miep."
Lots of times I get whacked by people who want to debate, and that's okay. Of course. And always, whatever it is I get back here, it's always something useful. It's always something interesting. It's not always something that makes me happy, when I get the nerve to go back and read it. Sometimes it's hard, but it's always something I learn from, if only to learn how to blog better.
I don't always post diaries here when I'm so upset that I'm afraid to go back and read them again for weeks. Sometimes I actually get it together to write something more calmly, to tell a story from my heart.
I get good feedback on those too. I read it sooner, too.
Millions of you out there, people reading this blog Markos started up half a dozen or so years ago. Millions of people who might read what you write!
Effing terrifying, that. Yeah, and the charge when people jump on the post, get to arguing with you, with each other. It's hot, and it's scary too.
It's like trying to have a conversation with people in the middle of a huge event in an auditorium that seats thousands, without having any idea up front as to how many tickets were sold. You can't assume coziness, you can't assume fame.
All you can assume is that you might get jumped, might get ignored. Might make a friend, but IMHO the comments are a better place to make friends.
Kos has lots of good political journalism, and lots of wild raging blogging. I have no idea how to deal with the wild raging blogging aspect of Kos other than doing my own wild raging blogging, since I'm not pasted enough together to do political journalism to the extent that I would expect from myself (though I'm good on ecology, but that's not what this blog is about, or is it? Could it be?)
Anyhoo...bottom line, bottom line, always bottom line...good kudos to all you Kossacks, fighting the good fight.
Yeah, this is a cheerleader post, of sorts. Somebody's gotta do it, once in awhile. I never got charged up about blogging before I discovered this blog. That added something to my life. It changed me. I got into thinking that I could just write to people all over the world if I wanted to. I got into thinking that I had the RIGHT to do so.
And I do. And all of you other bloggers out there do too. It's an amazing thing to discover, that your voice is only as small as you let it be. You can talk, you can write, you can explain things, you can argue with people.
You can matter.
Go for it!
Miep