I go late at night, to the 24 hour pharmacy, which takes and extra 10 minutes to get to, because I am embarrassed.
I ran out of one set of the pills the Doctors give me. No big deal the pharmacy knows me well, and I have a endless inside track to more. But the total prescription will cost $1200.00. We are still uninsured. I get $40 worth.
I have not refilled some prescriptions this month, and I am rationing others. The Pharmacist understands, he lends me a few of these or those when he can.
Why do this in the middle of the night? It was a decision of mine to build a relationship with the late night pharmacist, that way if there was a real and imminent need, the pharmacist would understand and help out. And if I had to beg, for a critical drug, I at least could do so with out every soccer mom watching.
I know they are still pushing the SAME HCR bill, so I know:
I will not get the right to an abortion, birth control etc
I am considered one of the persons with a pre=-existing condition so no coverage until 2012 (I had a c Section, every woman who has had a C section is excluded from the first 2 years of coverage)
Social Security is a bust, takes 2 years to get, denied and another 2 years to have a lawyer take half of the benefit money to get you a pittance.
I can't go to the Doctor, even though my legs have been swollen for three months now, and they hurt,
And I am not allowed to buy my meds form Canada or Mexico where they are cheaper, the Doctors won't send prescriptions for me. The stated claim is the meds MAY be unsafe.
Listen I realize Most of KOS has not lost their jobs, like we did, None of the Senators or Reps have ever lived through this lack of insurance,
but NO help, NO where, I have tried every agency, every organization, every one of them respond the same way...
No help sorry.
Once you lose your house you will be eligible, Once you are homeless we can help. Why must we be forced into such disgrace before anyone will help? Are Americans so worthless to each other?
And Watch there will be negative comments in here on this, personal attacks come at times with these diaries too.
I am tired of fighting the "good" fight, my family, everyone in my life, would be better off if this disease would just take over, do me in and get it over with.