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Recently (in a relative sense) I wrote a diary about a rather unpleasant experience I had when I was much younger, and I wound up getting a lot of really good feedback that led me to take a closer look at just when my weight was going up and down, and when it started going up and basically kept going up.
That led me very quickly to the realization that there was probably a good chance that my bad experience and my weight gain were actually quite possibly tied together. I knew, in the mechanical sense, that my weight gain was tied to A) eating too much, and B) Doing too little to burn off the calories I was taking in. But I never looked beyond the mechanics. I never looked for any particular reason I might be eating more, and doing less, having merely chalked it up to good tasting food, and being stuck in a lab doing research, then stuck in a cubical doing programming.
So for decades, I avoided facing my earlier problem, and for decades I ate ever more, and became ever more reclusive, dropping out of my social circles, begging off of invitations, and simply gaining ever more weight, and seemed unable to ever break the cycle.
Several months back, my decisions about goals helped me break at least a part of that cycle, and I went on what was, for me, a serious weight control plan, and although I've still been struggling more than I hoped, I've made sustained progress. I think, though, that my newfound realizations as to some of the deeper reasons behind my weight gain in the first place, will help me let go of some of my subconscious desire to stay heavy.
Emotions and the subconscious are tricky things, and the part of my regimen that has worked the best is becoming intentionally conscious of exactly what I eat, and how much exercise I'm getting. I would now add to that that I think becoming intentionally conscious of why I became morbidly obese in the first place, why I started eating ever more, and doing ever less, and why I don't need to do so, and really never needed to, despite what my subconscious said, are going to make staying the course and reaching my goal less of a struggle.
I would imagine that those of you who have a similar story, with some 'trigger', event related to your weight issues have either preceded me in examining that trigger, or might also benefit from doing so now, even if it's painful to recall.
300.0# Starting weight
265.0# Current Weight
35.0# Loss To Date