So now it comes to what is left of my life and is that sliver, shadow of my former self worth living for or not.
I am entrenched daily in Medicare, SSDI, Food Stamps, energy assistance, more agencies to be of help. Right?
But really just more dehumanizing processes designed to keep you out, not help you out.
Same set of questions i have filled out a million times now. Had I allowed this much redundancy in ANY of the deployments I lead, I would have been fired. Each agency requires the same information, and they do not share.
More............
But I go, or we go, I can't really go alone anymore, the drive home is too much. And god forbid I short myself on O2 or I spend hours more there than I was originally told I would need. This is the Gold Standard by the way. 1 hour = 4 2 hours = all day. I can barely walk out, let alone drive.
I fill out everything I can online, then I get a call, come for an appointment. One conversation:
Ring ring
Social Worker: Ms. Pissed Off
Me: Yes
SW: I have received your application, I need to schedule you and appointment to come and sit with me so we can work out what your eligable for.
Me: OK, I am free all this week and all next week.
SW: OK that is good, can you come in three weeks?
Me: I am sorry that is the only week I am not free, I have an out of state Doctor that week and will be gone all week.
SW: OK then next week, Thursday at 9 am?
Me: Yes I will be there
SW: we are on the second floor over the biggest bar in town.
SW: Can you climb stairs
Me: No
SW: Well is there someone who can help you climb the stairs
Me: I can not climb stairs no matter what, and I know no one who can carry me.
SW: Hmmm, can you hold one minute.
SW: I am sorry, if you can not get to our temporary offices on the second floor we are going to deny your application as non compliant.
I will risk a heart attack and climb her stairs, Welcome to America
I remember having a heated discussion in the board room about Welfare and how welfare, social security and medicare are the most evil things ever created. I guess the social workers think that too..
Seems I have no value, even as a client.