I know, I already put a note up in my earlier diary that I am taking a much-needed break from the site. Aside from KosAbility on Wednesdays, I won't be writing, commenting, uprating, hiderating or otherwise participating for awhile. I would still like to remain a member of this blog (well, "like" is a relative term) in order to keep doing KosAbility, which I really love. All the people who write for that series and comment there are great people - except for the trolls we get. Yeah, trolls in a series about disabilities. I'm shocked too.
I'm not in a place mentally or emotionally where I can continue to post here, with the way things currently are. Earlier today, I posted a diary about segregating straight troops from gay troops and while the majority of comments were nice, there were some trolls and thread hijacks by non-trolls. It was the final straw but not the only thing causing this. I will not go into further detail here.
One thing I do want to say is this: I have an apology to make. A few weeks ago I uprated a comment in a front-page thread saying that President Obama and George Wallace's stances on "separate but equal" were similar. I then replied to the commenter and told them it was harsh. Anyway, I'm sorry. And I repudiate the comment and my uprate of it and do not wish to be continually associated with it. It was a mistake and I regret it.
I just want to make that clear to the community - though I know many of you don't know what I'm talking about or why I'm writing this to say it. Feel free to ignore this. It's for the people who were and are offended by that comment and the fact that I uprated it. I do not want to cause any hurt here nor extend any already wide divides in this community and I feel that my uprate of that comment has done this. If I could take it back, I would, but the time to unrec has expired.
Still, I repudiate the comment and my uprate of it.
Maybe one day I'll feel like coming back and writing here. I'm just not in the right place to deal with all of the infighting going on here. There are so, so many things going on in my life right now and while I've shared some of them with people here, I've not shared even close to all of them. I hate it, because I love to write and I love to debate about politics, even when people disagree with me. That's why I'm known here for making it a priority to reply to all of the comments in my diaries (which I won't do in this one, since it's a TTFN.) I sincerely hope that this doesn't come off as a whiny "taking my ball and going home" moment. It's truly not. I love this stuff so much. It is my life. I will probably write more at my own blog or even make an account over at FDL (yeah, I know) to write there.
I have chosen mostly to stay out of the offending diaries that have been posted lately. I've read the comments but have not recommended or hide-rated any of them, nor did I ever make my presence known in those diaries in any way. And that's how it will continue to be. I'm not the type to instigate fights or cause problems and I feel guilty that anything I've done has caused issues for anyone.
If you want to find me, my email is in my profile and my personal blog (where honestly I hardly ever write) is in there, too.
Later.