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after reading your wonderful kind comments two days ago, i wanted to share that tee is still with us - he is very weak but contented.  he is in no pain and does not want to leave the home he has had for ten years.  should the situation change, we have plans in place to have him move on here at home.  

i would like to share a bit of his journey with you all - and, rest assured, he has received every one of your hugs, skritches, kisses, healing thoughts, light and love.

OH!  HAI..
oh!  HAI...

while he hasn't been wanting much food, he DID decide to hold onto a piece of toasty buttermilk bread JUST in case he got hungry!

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(in case you missed it...he has toast!)

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and here he is yesterday with one of his favorite babies that he "found" in the hotel room as we drove across country last year for mom's memorial ...

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this is from yesterday as he was (and still is now) surrounded by his "babies"...

but, mostly, though, he is just "seeping" (note the ears on full alert, however, just in case one of his "babies" wanders off...)  the "pink baby" is 64 yrs old - it was my "pink baby" when i was two - now it is his.  he sleeps with it under his head most of the time;

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oh, i moved his "juvenile mattress" (5' x 2 1/2') downstairs since he couldn't make the stairs and then brought my own blanket down and we slept side by side.  the first night, we snuggled and when i awoke, i was treated to the traditional samoyed "share" - i had 6" of mattress and he was in the exact epicenter of the bed.  some things never change!

now, i have the doggie beds beside his mattress and i am sleeping on those.  he has awakened me both mornings with nudges and kisses - making the less than soft accommodations melt into sweetness.

today he is farther away - sleeping longer, less awake - but still will open his eyes and listen to the samoyeds we found who howl on youtube - his ears stay on full alert.

i've told him that they are waiting for him on the other side of that bridge leading to the elysian fields, where all chihuahuas LIKE to be picked up and carried around.

and, he wanted me to let you know that while he loved living with me, i still made him "work" for his dinner - he had to scrub the pans!  oh! the exquisite torture!

he is a good "blue dog" who deserves your love to help carry him across that bridge to meet all those wonderful pooties, woozles, ponies, feathered and furred friends from the great orange land who have gone on before!  they will all have much to talk about when they get together - about how their humans seemed stuck on that little box that made them so mad at times and how we should be more like them and just smell the flowers (then "water" them!)

tee car ride smilin

i hope you will find as much comfort in these pictures as i do - and that you will learn from sharing his gentle journey, as well.  life is temporary - it is the love in between the beginning and the second "beginning" that matter.

and tee and i send you all love back with all our hearts!  now, back to my boy...  

tee kiss amy pic

4:03 PM PT: [UPDATED to apologize!  i wanted to go back and rec all of your kind words in my first diary but the ability to rec is gone - i am so sorry - but please know that i have read every word and hold them close to my heart!  tee and i love you all!]

Originally posted to edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 03:19 PM PDT.

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  •  Booter and Kitina are waiting at the bridge, (14+ / 0-)

    Tee will have many friends waiting for him there. Sharing in your greiving, W.

  •  I Always Tell People This Story (12+ / 0-)

    Not until a few years ago, well I never had any pets. One of my cats got really, really sick. I am not sure exactly what happened, but I think she got into a room and ate some printer toner.

    She had massive problems. The vet told me they could manage the situation but she'd have very bad days and bad days.

    I wasn't sure what to do.

    I called a friend of mine that has 13 rescued grey hounds. It is his lives passion.

    He explained to me that I gave her a wonderful life. Rescued her from the street as a kitten. I gave her love and attention and it was my duty to end if life if there was no chance for her to improve (there wasn't) and she'd be living her life in pain.

    That keeping her alive a few months longer might make me feel better, it wouldn't make her feel better.

    It was a hard decision, but one I know have hindsight, I am happy I made.

    When opportunity calls pick up the phone and give it directions to your house.

    by webranding on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 03:46:13 PM PDT

    •  not letting our friends hurt is the greatest gift (16+ / 0-)

      one can give.  i've been nose to nose with my creatures, from dogs, to squirrels to ponies.  preventing suffering is such a kindness.

      tee is amazing me - he is so comfortable and quiet and contented.  if it were otherwise, we would be taking steps immediately to stop.  he is one of three dogs that i've lived with that truly wanted to "be at home" for the duration.  

      i think that with tee, it comes from the unstable beginning he had - this is now his place and he is enjoying it to the last day.

      also, we are now having complete time together - a friend is taking care of my "pony" (as i did for her when her beloved dog died) so that i can be with him without interruption.

      aside from the cuddling, it also lets me know if the situation changes.  so far, he is basking in the sounds of xm classical music surrounded by his toys and being hugged by mom (with this brief break - he only has one hand petting him at the moment...)

      we have a resonsibility to take care of them through their entire lives when we make that commitment to accept their love.

      we are so lucky - i am so lucky.  my last babies became ill quickly and painfully and the decision then was easy because it was the right one.  this one is amazing to me - he is teaching me as we go along about the naturalness of life and the ease of letting go.

      i am reminded of a horse i met years ago - just shy of 40 yrs old (VERY VERY old for a full sized horse).  he would lie down and not be able to get back up without tremendous effort and help from many people.

      right before christmas, monty lay down and his mom was distraught. she wasn't ready to let go yet - but at then end of hours of coaxing, he still was down.  she left for the night and i promised to watch him.

      as yall may know, i "talk" to animals - and when i asked monty what was wrong, his response was this: "i'm tired" - not sick, but "tired"  it was too much work to stay up and keep on going and he wanted to now rest and let go.

      i explained to him that christmas time was very very hard on humans and that his mom would forever grieve even moreso if he left right now and i asked him if he could stay just a little longer.

      he got up.  and, he stayed another three weeks - then he lay down and quietly left this realm.

      with mr. tee, i've asked him to tell me when he has reached the point that his illness (diabetes) is too much for him - and when he needs to go, all he had to do was stop eating.

      he did just that last week - even though i coaxed him into two more meals, he has said that he is through.  and, he wants to stay at home.  my bargain with him is that as long as he isn't in pain, we can do this his way, but i won't let him hurt.  we agree on that.

      so far, this is peaceful and contented.  i am now realizing that i have a doggie hospice and my job is to keep him comfortable.  this is a new experience for me - and one filled with wonder.

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 03:58:36 PM PDT

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  •  Hi honey... wanted to let you know our Casey, gone (8+ / 0-)

    now 8 years, and who was a little baby afflicted with feline leukemia when we got him, although we didn't know at the time, is waiting for Mr. Tee.  He has games planned for playing and the whole gang of our loved furries waiting to welcome Mr. Tee.  We all want to be sure Mr. Tee knows he won't be alone when he passes over the Rainbow Bridge and we want to be sure he knows you won't be alone either.

    God Edrie, he is gorgeous.  I love watching his paw continue to connect with the little toy.

    Gotta stop, I'm crying.  I hope you are ok.  Here if you need me.  Love you much.

    Nan

    Andy's two-timin' tail run off wiff mah sig line!

    by nannyboz on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 04:22:29 PM PDT

  •  I am sorry this is happening... (8+ / 0-)

    I watched the video. I sincerely pray and hope that tee will have a smooth, peaceful transition. I've always wante to believe there was an animal heaven as you believe. I have not had a dog, but I've had cats and I can tell they have a soul.

    At this point, far more people have now been arrested for protesting Wall Street's mortgage fraud crimes than have been for committing and presiding over them.

    by joedemocrat on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 04:46:55 PM PDT

  •  I have lived with three Sammies (9+ / 0-)

    all gone now. The last one to die was Zam (don't ask) who had the bad non-choice of pressuresores, incontinence, and then not be
    ing able to walk at all. That was the day that we took him  to the vet hospital and wished him goodby. His ashes surround my cottage; He was sight-impaired as well but did like circling the cottage.

    Sorry you have to go through this. Hugs to you and Mr Tee.

    Americans, while occasionally willing to be serfs, have always been obstinate about being peasantry. F. Scott Fitzgerald, the Great Gatsby

    by riverlover on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 04:48:40 PM PDT

    •  i can just imagine how you got "zam" since (8+ / 0-)

      sammies NEVER are named simply!

      mr tee's full name is "tendu, formerly known as thunder, better known as teeter, tee and mr tee".

      my first sammy was ariadne obnoxious after the opera...

      david niven was her son and was called that by a friend, who exclaimed, "DAVID NIVEN, DAVID NIVEN!" when she first saw him.  i asked her quizzically why she was calling him that and she said it was because he was so "elegant and sexy".  well, i didn't PLAN on registering him as david niven, but every time the ads for the "i'm david niven, the world's biggest chicken" (the two footer for an airline) came on, there was the pup with his tail wagging furiously in front of the television set!

      my others through the years also had names that suited their samminess.

      for now, with tee, he is unable to stand or walk, but to keep him from getting bedsores, he is on an egg crate foam mattress and i keep turning him.  he's been blind for three years due to the diabetes - so, the sight doesn't bother him - his nose is very "visual".  i keep him dry and clean and a touch of zinc oxide so he won't have "diaper rash" if his fur gets damp...

      he's comfortable - if that changes, then we go to the next plan... a quiet and painless sleep.

      tee has made it very clear he doesn't want to leave his house.  the only time he has put his teeth on my wrist is when i started to lift him - he said no.  other than that, i can turn him, raise his head and neck for water, everything else.

      i had a german shepherd who was homeless when i found him that was the same way.  he would firmly take my wrist in his mouth when i would think "i'm going to take him to the vet now" and he would clearly say "NO~ i want to die at HOME!"  his, too, was an easy passing - not like this one - but easy, in his sleep.

      tee wants his cuddle time and his pets and his toys and his hugs.  he is the master of his universe and who am i to argue with him!  after all, he IS a samoyed!  (i'd never win!)

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 04:59:03 PM PDT

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  •  Please tell tee that (7+ / 0-)

    Zack, Molly Mole, Chinquipin, Dexter, Roadie the Nipper, Snapper, Scrappy and Gabe will welcome him into his new Pack. Loving woozles all. I can hardly wait to see them myself.
    Softly: Good boy tee!
    (((edrie)))

    "Authoritarians are attracted to equality because it justifies treating everyone equally shabbily." ~hannah~

    by emmasnacker on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 06:14:00 PM PDT

    •  oh, this must be the pack that (6+ / 0-)

      is keeping ariadne, david niven, jesse james, sam shepherd-sam shepherd, tutu, lily of the valley, m'lady, bijiou, gucci pucci, timily and tyler who?, cinnamon, sam(son), little girl (sasha), misha, and the rest of my "kids" busy!  and i bet nimbus is having a field day letting them chase HIM, too, cuz he never lost a race (except the one he threw to let the show pony win)

      when we reach that bridge, the first thing that will happen is we will get a pup behind our knees so that the one in front can topple us to the ground and we can then be smothered in poochie kisses!

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 06:25:29 PM PDT

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  •  My maltease Snowy and my cat Kelly (5+ / 0-)
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    are both waiting on the rainbow bridge.  So sad that we have to lose these little loves.

  •  going to try to sneak over to my next door (5+ / 0-)

    neighbor's for a cup of coffee (to go, of course) and see if he'll let me "off-leash" for a few minutes.

    back in a bit... a very QUICK bit.  i know mr tee - he isn't about to let me take the 'bertible and go without him and he will assume that is what i'm trying to do!  8^)

    EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

    by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 06:40:04 PM PDT

    •  wow! made it back without him trying (4+ / 0-)
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      to get up and follow me!

      of course, going barefoot and creeping helped - but when i got back, his ears were up and his mouth tight to ask me where did i think i was going!  dang!  my MOTHER wasn't this strict!

      now he's settled back down comfy with his toys.

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 06:59:46 PM PDT

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  •  Oh edrie, he is so beautiful....... (5+ / 0-)
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    ...and looks so content, surrounded by your love and care. I too am in tears for you and Mr. Tee.....may he cross peacefully and without pain.

    My Cookie will welcome him with kitty kisses.♥

    Hugs to you, dear friend.

  •  Take my hand, edrie ... (5+ / 0-)
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    Thank you for sharing Mr. Tee's final days with us. I have a story you can read to him about Miss Scarlett and her babies - I think he'll like it. Please ask him to give my love to Miss Scarlett (and Duke and Joe Willie and all the others) when he crosses the Rainbow Bridge.

    And come here and let us love on you when he's gone. ♥

    "Do your little bit of good where you are; it is those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world." ~ Desmond Tutu

    by KelleyRN2 on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 08:01:48 PM PDT

    •  i'll read it to him now... thank you (5+ / 0-)

      for sharing miss scarlett with mr tee...  i loved that diary when you wrote it and i know that mr tee will enjoy it this time around.

      as miss scarlett took care of her babies, so does tee.  he would carefully choose WHICH baby hadn't been out for a while or hadn't gone on a ride - he'd carefully go through the rather large stack (over 150 babies) and pick the one who would be gracing our trip that day.

      he would be carrying a puppy one day to the barn, another day, he'd have one of four of his "ponies" (appropriate to take them to the barn, yes?)

      he loved carrying around his ikea rats but he drew the most attention with the ikea ferret.  it looked like road kill.  it drooped dramatically out of each side of his mouth and never failed to elicit screams - especially from the lady that mistook it for her dachshund.  

      but the funniest "baby" story was the day a neighbor's overconfident chihuahua came flying out of his home and started barking furiously in both toady and tee's faces.  toady was quite pleased and looked at him as if to say, "can i join you in making such beautiful noise?"

      but, tee, however, clearly saw this as a baby out of control.  so...

      he simply nosed the chihuahua onto his side and deftly picked him up - with that little doggie's feel kicking wildly toward tee's neck as he gingerly held the little dog around the middle.  the chihuahua was screaming bloody murder, but mr. soft mouth applied no pressure at all.

      mr tee was highly dissapointed when i said loudly and sharply, "PUT THE CHIHUAHUA DOWN NOW! TEE!!"  he looked disappointed because he wanted to bring him home - but he did put the wee dog down - who promptly raced back into his house and never came outside again when we were near.

      to apologize to him, i took him a pound of fresh ground buffalo and apologized profusely, explaining to him that tee didn't mean to scare him, he just wanted to keep him as another one of his "babies".

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 08:19:30 PM PDT

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      •  You're a great storyteller, my friend (6+ / 0-)

        It's a gift, you know, whipsawing people from laughter to tears and back to laughter again in a paragraph. I have to be careful when I read your stories, making sure there's not a sleeping pootie on my foot. Tommy gets startled when I laugh out loud, and Jim Bob acts out when I cry, patting my face with a paw - worse, he blocks my view of the monitor!

        When it's my time to go, edrie, I hope someone just like you keeps watch with me.

        "Do your little bit of good where you are; it is those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world." ~ Desmond Tutu

        by KelleyRN2 on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 08:45:33 PM PDT

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  •  Sending much love to you and Mr. Tee (3+ / 0-)
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    I seem to be quite damp after reading your diary. The transition between one world to the next can be a golden time of good byes. I wish Tee a peaceful passage.

    "We are slow to realize that democracy is a life; and involves continual struggle." ~ "Fighting Bob" - Robert M. LaFollette Sr.

    by Sand Hill Crane on Sun Apr 01, 2012 at 09:38:43 PM PDT

  •  Our friend Mr. Tee... (3+ / 0-)
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    Let Mr. Tee know that he has so many friends sending him good thoughts in his transition over the rainbow bridge.  Many more than he could possibly imagine.  He will be met by many more friends on the other side, like King, Duke, Euthythro, and of course CC Lines Frederick a/k/a the Shadow...  

    The Wazz and the Somethin' Else wish him peace...

    Wheathead by birth, Texan by fate, smelled "dead man's butt" as a working stiff...

    by Publius Vergilius Aurelius on Mon Apr 02, 2012 at 02:23:14 AM PDT

    •  thank you for all the wonderful ones who will be (0+ / 0-)

      there to join in showing him his new world.

      EdriesShop - heart and jade old stock up to 50% off - tonite only! insulin, vet bills and fuel gaskets, oh my! Is GlowNZ back yet?

      by edrie on Mon Apr 02, 2012 at 08:56:46 PM PDT

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