Skip to main content

I have stage 3 Larangeal squamous cell carcinoma, and tomorrow at 12:00 noon I will have my larynx surgically removed. I am currently sitting here on the side of my hospital bed typing this on my laptop and trying to wrap my head around all of this.

Life long smoker until about 4 years ago which coincided with my job loss, gave it up but too little too late. Lost my health insurance , couldn't afford COBRA. When my UI ran out I was given Medical Assistance, by which time my Dr recommended I apply for Disability for COPD.

The good news(I thought) was that I was awarded my disability but my change from $0 income pushed me past my MA thresholds and I got cut off. Aha, but more good news, I discovered that after one is awarded disability for one year that Medicare allows enrollment at my age (62). My  date is August 2012.

The problem is that my throat symptoms kept getting worse and I was just trying to hang on until August. Instead I had to call an ambulance on 4/20(4-24) and was diagnosed with paralyzed voiced box , thyroid lesions(results were benign, the great rejoicing a was a tad premature) and pneumonia.

I returned to the hospital by ambulance this 5-6 Sunday gasping for breath and here I am. I have had a tracheotomy in since yesterday afternoon.

I'm not sure why I'm trying to write this now, I don't suppose I'm making much sense, but It may be that last thing I'll get to send out over the innertubez and if so, I want it to be to all you wonderful people that I spend so much of my day reading.

6:37 PM PT: Update 9:35
I'm getting too tired to read & reply now, but I will catch up tomorrow?

Fri May 11, 2012 at 12:37 AM PT: Update: 3:39AM
Can''t sleep andI started to read the comments. I can see I won't be able to reply to all of them personally, just know how very much I appreciate your thoughts, it means more than you all will ever know.

PS: I'll ask my Sis to post to my account to let you know how it went.

Fri May 11, 2012 at 12:59 AM PT: 3:55 Just a quick note to answer a frequent question. Yes I do have someone to help.My sister has been a rock.

Sun May 13, 2012 at 9:52 PM PT: AntKat's sister here, letting you know that she made it through surgery okay and is making good progress. It will be a long recovery. I want to thank you all for keeping her in your thoughts and prayers.

Originally posted to AntKat on Thu May 10, 2012 at 06:25 PM PDT.

Also republished by Monday Night Cancer Club.

EMAIL TO A FRIEND X
Your Email has been sent.
You must add at least one tag to this diary before publishing it.

Add keywords that describe this diary. Separate multiple keywords with commas.
Tagging tips - Search For Tags - Browse For Tags

?

More Tagging tips:

A tag is a way to search for this diary. If someone is searching for "Barack Obama," is this a diary they'd be trying to find?

Use a person's full name, without any title. Senator Obama may become President Obama, and Michelle Obama might run for office.

If your diary covers an election or elected official, use election tags, which are generally the state abbreviation followed by the office. CA-01 is the first district House seat. CA-Sen covers both senate races. NY-GOV covers the New York governor's race.

Tags do not compound: that is, "education reform" is a completely different tag from "education". A tag like "reform" alone is probably not meaningful.

Consider if one or more of these tags fits your diary: Civil Rights, Community, Congress, Culture, Economy, Education, Elections, Energy, Environment, Health Care, International, Labor, Law, Media, Meta, National Security, Science, Transportation, or White House. If your diary is specific to a state, consider adding the state (California, Texas, etc). Keep in mind, though, that there are many wonderful and important diaries that don't fit in any of these tags. Don't worry if yours doesn't.

You can add a private note to this diary when hotlisting it:
Are you sure you want to remove this diary from your hotlist?
Are you sure you want to remove your recommendation? You can only recommend a diary once, so you will not be able to re-recommend it afterwards.
Rescue this diary, and add a note:
Are you sure you want to remove this diary from Rescue?
Choose where to republish this diary. The diary will be added to the queue for that group. Publish it from the queue to make it appear.

You must be a member of a group to use this feature.

Add a quick update to your diary without changing the diary itself:
Are you sure you want to remove this diary?
(The diary will be removed from the site and returned to your drafts for further editing.)
(The diary will be removed.)
Are you sure you want to save these changes to the published diary?

Comment Preferences

Kitty, shari, buddhistMonkey, vicki, CJB, hazey, fcvaguy, Radiowalla, murphy, BrooklynJohnny, Cali Scribe, Gooserock, TrueBlueMajority, lost, nmjardine, greenbird, Avila, littlesky, TheGreatLeapForward, EdinPHX, donna in evanston, ChicDemago, SanJoseLady, mslat27, rightiswrong, eeff, moira977, StevenJoseph, HarlemUSA, SallyCat, opinionated, concernedamerican, brillig, mint julep, nyceve, whenwego, twcollier, CoolOnion, AlyoshaKaramazov, jalbert, fumie, high uintas, wader, RLF, VexingEyes, dejavu, sockpuppet, NYC Sophia, 2laneIA, susie dow, hoolia, cosette, Damnit Janet, HeyMikey, DSC on the Plateau, RebeccaG, riverlover, BlogDog, Lilith, JayBat, zerelda, Kitsap River, parryander, KayCeSF, homogenius, sawgrass727, jabney, escapee, Unit Zero, BluejayRN, UncleCharlie, blueyedace2, offred, Alice Venturi, basquebob, Brooke In Seattle, ratzo, Dem Beans, chancew, ladybug53, Kayakbiker, blue jersey mom, Rock Strongo, kaliope, kazoo of the north, Ozzie, noemie maxwell, WisePiper, Ginny in CO, Red Bean, Ekaterin, Blue Bronc, martini, Patriot Daily News Clearinghouse, Clytemnestra, tobendaro, ActivistGuy, twigg, gooderservice, uniqity, SadieSue, paul2port, JVolvo, bleeding heart, myrealname, middleagedhousewife, vivian darkbloom, BlueMississippi, doingbusinessas, Clive all hat no horse Rodeo, Stripe, nannyboz, Statusquomustgo, kurious, cpresley, Thinking Fella, One Pissed Off Liberal, dotsright, Cronesense, tgypsy, Debs2, devis1, larmos, edsbrooklyn, FishOutofWater, DvCM, jeanette0605, flumptytail, operculum, Seneca Doane, Kentucky Kid, jhop7, Rumarhazzit, uciguy30, on the cusp, TomP, gizmo59, ferment, kimoconnor, HappyinNM, DarkHawk98, Sixty Something, Senor Unoball, Involuntary Exile, Laughing Vergil, lineatus, Sharon Wraight, Lujane, Cassandra Waites, Hanging Up My Tusks, Missys Brother, catly, NogodsnomastersMary, Tam in CA, envwq, ClapClapSnap, luckylizard, JamieG from Md, magicsister, Ellinorianne, dmhlt 66, CA coastsider, Tennessee Dave, woodtick, legendmn, LaFeminista, J M F, greengemini, banjolele, Carol in San Antonio, geebeebee, UnaSpenser, MKSinSA, sfarkash, SheLawyer, Tortmaster, nancat357, citisven, Amber6541, Just Bob, commonmass, Laurilei, estreya, politik, Observerinvancouver, klompendanser, Lost and Found, freedapeople, JoanMar, pixxer, apip0115, sharonsz, Otteray Scribe, Oh Mary Oh, bosshogg, not4morewars, Actbriniel, indubitably, Belle Ame, yellow cosmic seed, allenjo, mama jo, lady blair, ultraviolet uk, freesia, myadestes, FarWestGirl, mikejay611, SoCaliana, blw, SueM1121, tardis10, peregrine kate, whaddaya, bluedust, Imhotepsings, Vatexia, SoCalSal, SteelerGrrl, DRo, Regina in a Sears Kit House, Apost8, Lucy2009, allergywoman, erush1345, AnnetteK, weatherdude, anodnhajo, Flying Goat, Siri, IndieGuy, Xkeeper, 2thanks, FloridaSNMOM, Trotskyrepublican, congenitalefty, mapamp, jan4insight, radical simplicity, BRog, cuphalffull, OllieGarkey, notdarkyet, tytalus, jennyp, brook, Marjmar, mumtaznepal, Lizabet, nomandates, Bud Fields, SanFernandoValleyMom, broths, weck, Yo Bubba, Renfriend, boudi08, Avilyn, pure prarie

Subscribe or Donate to support Daily Kos.

Click here for the mobile view of the site