Hey, thanks again to everyone who responded to my diary of saturday afternoon.
I needed help and this community was there for me, even though i hadn't given much of myself to it, and I'm eternally grateful for all the words and advice everyone gave me.
I mentioned that I went to my parents' with my kids for the weekend, and it helped a WHOLE lot to be around family. Did a lot of talking and relaxing, and I feel a LOT better today.
I took a few steps to getting my life and my mind turned around.
I joined the local ymca, and exercised today for about 2 hours: 30 mins aerobic, 30 mins weights and an hour of yoga this evening. and already, my mind feels a little better.
I also just drove around, asking if places were hiring, picking up about 5 applications, and another 5 online.
Finally, i spent about an hour for the first time in my life in a campaign office: i started volunteering for OFA. In fact, i'm on my way now to to my first phone bank! i'm nervous and excited all at once ~ deep breaths to overcome my anxiety about it as well.
Thanks again to everyone, and I hope to keep people apprised of my situation (if only for my own benefit, to see how far i've come since 10/6/12.
Thanks again guys for everything!!