Just a bit of musing on medication for meltdowns in Asperger Syndrome and how, while probably not for everyone (ok, definitely not), they have really changed my life for the better.
My wife and I had a disagreement this morning. It was nothing earth shattering, just typical married stuff, really, but I realized that if we had carried on the same conversation a year ago, it would have ended with me shouting or banging my head or generally melting down. It’s amazing how far I have come since last May, when I started Abilify. I still have my less than shining moments, but I can’t tell you the last time I had a severe meltdown. Heck, it’s been ages since I had a minor meltdown. I’m not saying that every Aspie should be on Abilify, or even that every Aspie needs medication, but I am saying that I am amazed at the difference it has made in MY life. When they told me it could reduce the severity of meltdowns, I envisioned myself still melting down every day, but perhaps without the concussions or yelling for hours about trivial things. It’s amazing the difference it has made in me, and I thank the universe for it. I just wish I had known sooner, that it had been prescribed when I was younger, before I made so many life-altering mistakes during meltdowns. If you’ve toyed with the idea of medication, do your research, but I guess I just want people to know that it CAN work. For me, it was a lifesaver.
What have your experiences been? Since I have learned that there are people out here reading my ramblings, what is it like for you? Has medication helped? Hurt? Are you averse to using it? I was. I still have days where I hate that I have to rely on some drug to keep me balanced. I'd love to know what you guys (and other ladies) have to say.